Prepared for Overnight Sleep Study

You know when you have a progressive disease sometimes it seems like the next step — the new normal — is dramatic? It seems to come out of nowhere…whether it’s your mobility, your energy, breathing capacity, or any of the myriad of bodily functions that can decline.

Well, I’m there with respiratory weakness. Yet it didn’t really happen overnight. I can recall 10 or so years ago going to my annual visit at the Muscular Dystrophy Association Care Clinic and, after taking a rather simplistic diagnostic test, being told by the nurse that my breathing capacity was at 70%. I don’t think I took it seriously because the diagnostic device was rudimentary and I felt healthy.

A year or so ago I was supplied with a ventilator for night time use. The whole experience freaked me out and I couldn’t handle the forced air. I would sit with it for ~ 15-minutes and then stop. After a month or so I tried to take a nap with it. I couldn’t handle it. Long story short, I ended up returning the device. I told myself the pulmonologist was moving too fast…like installing an outdoor ramp over stairs when you’re still ambulatory.

This past winter was a difficult one for me — one respiratory issue after another and I didn’t seem to have a full recovery. I’m with a different healthcare provider now and went to see a new pulmonologist who scheduled me for a sleep study. It took a couple of reschedules on my part because I was in denial of what I must have known was the inevitable.

The overnight study was conducted in a hotel-like environment though it was far from a luxurious experience. The sleep technician set me up with a Bi or C-Pap machine at the start and I just couldn’t handle it. It was too forceful and I panicked. She wasn’t able to adjust the settings and eventually got permission to let the sleep study be a baseline without the intervention. I slept for ~ 6 hours. Within a few days I heard from a physician who analyzed the study; I’d never met him. His phone etiquette was…despicable. He admonished me for not using the machine and said I needed it. He also offered that I “have few options — the machine or a trach.”

This brief phone conversation set off a period of depression. I was not operating with a glass half full perspective. Thankfully my pulmonologist led me to what I thought was another pulmonologist colleague of hers but he is actually a Critical Care doctor. After our first meeting my spirit lifted. He is listening to me and really understands that I need to gradually ramp up to the optimal settings. 

These adjustments to a progressive disease — a new normal — are difficult physically and emotionally. I’m grateful to be working with a physician that gets it. I’m also grateful for two Facebook groups — one specifically for adults with myotonic dystrophy and the other for breathing issues related to having a neuromuscular disease. I’ve learned valuable information and received support from these cohorts.

So far I’ve acclimated to one air pressure setting increase and using the humidifier. I also fell asleep twice with both on. Small steps. That’s what I can handle. I’m feeling hopeful.

Co-Founder of AXIS Dance Company

International Dance Day is April 29th. Here in Northern California we have Bay Area Dance Week with all types of free dance classes and performances. As Judith Smith, co-founder of the physically integrated dance company, AXIS, says, “Everybody who is in a body can dance and move — it’s a right we all have.” And that is the message of this podcast episode.

Years ago when I held my first dance marathon to raise money for the Muscular Dystrophy Association a banner hung with the slogan, “Dance for those who can’t”

Fundraising event for MDA held in a mall in North Miami Beach, Florida ~ 1978

and that sentiment couldn’t be further from the truth. The AXIS Dance Company has included artists with physical disabilities, commissioned award-winning choreographers and composers, toured 100+ cities, and appeared on Fox TV’s So You Think You Can Dance. Opportunities for adaptive dance exist from here — BORP’s World Dance for All — to North Carolina where Mindy Kim teaches chair dancing.

Leia Cash, a lifelong dancer and educator, teaches adaptive dance classes at the Ed Roberts Campus in Berkeley, adults with Parkinson’s disease, and seniors at a residential facility.

 

I am so grateful for the move I made to Northern California in 1989…even if it included experiencing the Loma Prieta earthquake. This is really one of the most inclusive areas in our country, especially for people with disabilities. I know of a family that relocated to California from the Midwest so their severely disabled son could reap the benefits of the Regional Center’s services as well as other state resources.

And the Ed Roberts Campus (ERC) is definitely one of the amazing resources. Located in Berkeley, California — across from a major public transportation hub — ERC houses a number of federal, regional, state, and nonprofit organizations providing services and resources for people with physical and/or developmental disabilities.

Located at a fully accessible transit hub, the Ed Roberts Campus is a national and international model dedicated to disability rights and universal access.
The Ed Roberts Campus commemorates the life and work of Edward V. Roberts, an early leader in the independent living movement of persons with disabilities. Ed believed in the strength of collaborative efforts: He called it “working toward our preferred future.”

Yesterday I attended the Momentum Expo sponsored by the Center for Independent Living. Here’s a short video I shot while at the Expo. The event was free. I had the chance to find out more about new and existing organizations, promote the podcast, and see friends I know from various aspects of the Northern California disabled community.

One organization housed at ERC is BORP: Bay Area Outreach & Recreation Programs. BORP has an adaptive fitness studio at ERC where I take classes. In fact, Valerie Jew’s Integrative Healing class is there. Lately I’ve been attending a World Dance for All class held in the BORP fitness studio. The next podcast episode is all about Dancing so you’ll soon hear more about this class.

Singing along to classics from my youth definitely has a positive effect on my mood. From sharing a karaoke night with friends to learning about music therapy from a licensed creative arts therapist, this episode explores the healing power of music for young and old with conditions ranging from autism, dementia, and Parkinson’s disease to persons healing from trauma.

Laurel Roth Patton — mental health consumer, advocate, speaker, and writer — and I talk about our different karaoke experiences. Juliane Kowski, LCAT, MT-BC, MA — of Music Connects — discusses what music therapy is and how it varies depending on the client and what they need.

 

To celebrate my birthday, one of my requests was a day at the spa. Not just any spa but this Zen-style spa out in the woods about an hour and a half from where I live. It’s pricey but it’s an experience. And that’s what I’m after — experiences — not more stuff. I’ve got enough stuff.

 The day began with a lovely drive on the back roads of Sonoma County. It was unintentional but the GPS fed us this circuitous yet gorgeous route. I saw parts of Sonoma I’ve never seen — so green and lush — it’s amazing how just a drive through more nature, less concrete, can ease your tension.

The massage treatment I signed up for focused on the body’s meridians and included essential oils. Surprisingly, the 75-minute treatment has you wearing loose clothing; it reminded me of a Thai massage I once had. Although I usually dislike lying on my stomach, I went for it in spite of the nearly constant sinus drainage I experience. The therapist moved my limbs in different ways than an ordinary massage would necessitate.

I didn’t fall asleep but I was very relaxed. It’s often disconcerting that you have to get up so soon after a massage but I felt a little less pressure here. I wasn’t forced to face the world too soon. What awaited me after the massage was a beautiful meditation garden which you enter through a gate that requests silence.

In the last couple of years I have a new respect for silence. I crave it. Is this part of growing older? Or perhaps it’s a result of having a neurological condition where I often find my senses overwhelmed by bright light and a cacophony of noise?

Seated under a pagoda sipping warm tea, I just watched and listened (and naturally shot a little video). My body was relaxed, my mind was relaxed. I was in the moment.

Can I capture this moment again and again? I want this moment to last longer. I want this moment to repeat, and repeat, and repeat.

Baxter Bell, MD with yoga students in a restorative pose

Baxter Bell, MD is not just a family medicine physician, he’s also a certified acupuncture practitioner and yoga therapist. Together with co-author, Nina Zolotow, they wrote the book, Yoga for Healthy Living: A Guide to LIfelong Well-Being. Baxter talks about his journey and shares insight about what aging people care most about — increasing one’s health span, maintaining independence over time, and cultivating equanimity. The thousands of people that have attended his trainings or follow his blog are concerned about cardiovascular health, brain health, and stress management. Yoga can assist with each of these.

Please check out Baxter’s Yoga & Healthy Aging Blog, his YouTube channel, and his book.

Terms discussed in this podcast episode:

  • Asana: In yoga, an asana is a posture in which a practitioner sits; asanas are also performed as physical exercise where they are sometimes referred to as “yoga postures” or “yoga positions”. Some asanas are performed just for health purposes. Asanas do promote good health, although in different ways compared to physical exercises, “placing the physical body in positions that cultivate also awareness, relaxation and concentration.” (Wikipedia)
  • Savasana: corpse pose; is an asana usually done at the end of a yoga practice in which practitioners lie flat on their backs with the heels spread as wide as the yoga mat and the arms a few inches away from the body, palms facing upwards. (Wikipedia)
  • Pranayama: breath or life force; the word is composed from two Sanskrit words: prana meaning life force (noted particularly as the breath), and either ayama (to restrain or control the prana, implying a set of breathing techniques where the breath is intentionally altered in order to produce specific results) or the negative form ayāma, meaning to extend or draw out (as in extension of the life force). (Wikipedia)

If your interest is piqued, check out these earlier podcast episodes on resilience and equanimity.

This photo is about 30 years old. It’s one of the last ones I have with both of us before her cancer diagnosis. In older photos she wore those awful turbans to cover her nearly bald head.

My mother was diagnosed with myotonic dystrophy (DM) circa 1990 before there was a DNA test available. When my parents told me of this diagnosis they never mentioned it was a genetic condition nor that it was serious. All I knew was that she appeared before medical students at the University of Miami School of Medicine so they could see that one leg calf had less muscle tone than the other. She had more severe health situations than thin calf muscles and had been repeatedly hospitalized.

In 1990 there was minimal information available about DM. As it turned out, so many of her health issues (gallbladder and GI problems, early cataracts, daily fatigue, respiratory problems, etc.) were related to the disorder. In the last few years there have been scientific studies looking at DM and cancer which suggest that people with DM are twice as likely to have certain cancers. My mother smoked her entire adult life, was often depressed, and drank alcohol daily — creating a fertile environment for the lung and brain cancer which caused her death.

We have also learned through scientific research that myotonic dystrophy, in addition to being passed on with 50% probability for each offspring, has a component called anticipation. Essentially this means that the severity of the condition increases with each generation and often with each birth. My parents had another daughter nearly two years after I was born but she lived only three days. Now I know this child had the more severe congenital form of DM.

So tomorrow I turn 56 years old; my mother died 6 weeks before her 56th birthday.

Searching the Internet, shortly after I was diagnosed in the late ’90s, I discovered a table with data showing the average life span for adult-onset DM being between 48-55. My mother fit that data set.

So tomorrow is bittersweet. I like to think that all of my self-care and positive attitude has pivoted me beyond the dire expectations. Yet these past few months have proven to be physically and emotionally challenging. My respiratory issues, and subsequent sleep study, show that I need breathing assistance at night. My energy has a marked decline and I worry that I won’t be able to recapture it.

Birthdays can be difficult for anyone after a certain age but perhaps more so when you have this anticipated early decline…each year represents more loss to come. I’ll be celebrating with a few friends at a karaoke bar and hopefully that will kick my butt into a more glass half full perspective.

February 28th is Rare Disease Day. This year’s theme is: Research. How can we support research efforts for our rare disease? We can donate to our patient advocacy organizations that

spearhead research efforts. And we, as rare disease patients, can participate in research studies and clinical trials.

This podcast episode features three individuals. Amy Lynn Ream and Dean Sage both participated in phase 1 clinical trials for a potential treatment for myotonic dystrophy. Hugo Trevino, who has spinal muscle atrophy (SMA), is in his third week of Spinraza infusions and already feeling positive effects.

Hugo recommends for all those with a rare disease, check out this link to see if you’re eligible to participate in any research studies.

If you care for someone with a neuromuscular disease — like myotonic dystrophy, SMA, or the 40+ other rare neuromuscular diseases — please donate to the Muscular Dystrophy Association.

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Today’s podcast is all about Rare Diseases. In fact, this Wednesday, February 28th is the 11th annual international Rare Disease Day. The main objective of this day is to raise awareness for the general public and decision-makers about rare diseases and their impact on patients’ lives. This year’s theme is Research.

So how can we – people with rare diseases and those that care about us – have an impact on research? We can donate money to organizations spearheading research studies and clinical trials for our rare disease or we – as for lack of a better word, Patients – can participate in research.

Today I have three guests – each one has a rare disease. I do too, as a matter of fact. Though it’s often hard for me to remember that myotonic dystrophy, or DM, is rare since I know so many people with the disease…or disorder…or condition. I have both donated money and time to two patient advocacy organizations in my life and I’ve participated in a variety of research studies. The first two guests participated in phase 1 of a clinical trial during 2016. I was recruited for this drug trial but chose not to participate for a variety of reasons. I heartily applaud those that participated. Unfortunately, the drug did not move to the next level; as the pharmaceutical compared shared with the myotonic dystrophy community:

While the field gained considerable insights into the compound, clinical endpoints and future clinical trial design, DMPKRx did not achieve sufficient exposure in skeletal muscle to have the desired effect on RNA splicing.

The good news was that we were able to observe some changes in biomarkers such as RNA splicing and could detect low levels of the drug in muscle tissue. While we gained important learnings from this study, based on our experience we feel that these changes were not large enough to produce the level of clinical benefit we hope to achieve.

            Both Amy and Dean were part of the clinical trial; I interviewed Amy before the study ended and Dean afterwards. Amy Lynn Ream, as you may remember, appeared in an earlier podcast episode where she shared her love of singing…operatic singing. She holds an annual recital to raise money for a nonprofit providing exercise and recreation opportunities for those with physical or developmental disabilities.

I met Amy soon after being diagnosed with myotonic dystrophy. Her parents were regular attendees at the support group I facilitated and I’ve shared a lot of good times with Amy and her family over the past 20 years.

I know you’ve participated in a clinical trial…what was your motivation, what did it mean for you to participate in these two studies?

I think I realized when I started singing – I love the word empowerment – if I’m not working anymore, I want to use my energy to fix the world. When we sat there 19 years ago, nothing was in the pipeline.

Here’s what it meant to me, I thought at first I was doing it for myself because it could halt the disease…I was doing it for the next generation. Here I am not scared of needles, medical procedures. I can do this. They took a lot of blood, a lot of skin. Look at the form. [she talks about brother dying during project] Maybe I’m fixing a little piece of the world. That’s what I’m all about, Amy likes to help.

I encourage people who have the same itch that I have to go out to ask questions if it’s something that’s important to you; you don’t have to donate tissue. Do it for your own reasons, don’t feel bad. It just fit into my goal. The people at Stanford are so good; you have 24-hour access. The pharmaceutical company paid for the car.

The best thing about the clinical trial are the people. They become your friends.

Next, you’re going to hear from Dean Sage – who also has myotonic dystrophy. Dean is an attorney in San Diego. I can’t remember when we met but it was at the annual patient conference put on by our patient advocacy organization. DM is such a family disease so naturally I’ve met Dean’s parents and his siblings – one who also has the disease and the other doesn’t. Dean’s a very interesting young man and in a future podcast you’ll get to see another aspect of his life…I’ll let it be a surprise for you now.

The Isis trial was cancelled I’m not aware of any restrictions. I didn’t recognize…I feel strongly that I was on the placebo. There were people that reported benefits. I think the reason I participated…I fought to get in the study. The reason I did it was desperation; if this is a possible treatment and cure. There was an element of altruism…trying to move that ball down. That was a distant second to wanting to eradicate the disease. It was more like 7 or 8 months. The pre-screen to meet the qualifications. Baseline studies. The strength test was quantitative. After the baseline, they did the first round of injections, stay overnight. They were drawing blood for every half hour to make sure that nothing was going wrong. There were weekly injections…the most emotionally draining was trying to get into the trial. The trial itself wasn’t very trying emotionally or physically. When I found out that I wouldn’t know if I was placebo or not placebo. My hope was that if it did work that after the trial you would have access to the drug on the open label extension. It was the silver lining. I didn’t spend a lot of time trying to figure out what I was on. I left it up to the researchers.

My last guest is Hugo Trevino. I met Hugo last year in Washington DC when I attended a conference organized by the Muscular Dystrophy Association, where Hugo works. He is also a graduate student studying international higher education. Hugo also has a rare disease – SMA, or Spinal Muscle Atrophy. SMA is also genetic and one of his 3 siblings also has the disease.

When you meet Hugo you’re immediately hit with his amazing radiating smile and positive energy. Although we didn’t get to talk much at the Washington conference I wanted to get to know him so we connected on Facebook. When I saw that Hugo recently started taking the new drug, Spinraza, I knew he had to be a part of this podcast episode.

So…the action items for today’s podcast — if you have a rare disease, check out the website Hugo mentioned to see if there are research or clinical studies you can participate in. if you care for someone with a rare disease, please consider donating to the appropriate patient advocacy organization to help further research efforts.

            If you enjoy this podcast and the guests you heard from, you can always make a donation to the Muscular Dystrophy Association. The link is on the Glass Half Full website. Thanks again for listening!

In the final stretch of fighting the FLU, I decided to explore why my immunity may have been off. It’s a story, a short story, that I hope is thought-provoking for you. 

If you’re interested in learning more about building your immunity, check out this month’s featured book selection in the side bar. For more on respiratory health, make sure you listen to this podcast episode. Check out the latest news about the flu season from the CDC.

If you want a reliable companion while fighting sickness, check out Alexa and the Echo Plus. Okay, Alexa is not a reasonable substitution for a human or pet but she never once complained that I was asking her too many questions.

Not a bad companion when you’re bedridden.

It’s all about support groups! Listen to several support group facilitators talk about their experiences attending and eventually facilitating a support group. Patient advocacy organizations represented include the Muscular Dystrophy Association, Multiple Sclerosis Foundation, and the FSH Society. Support groups organized through MeetUp cover chronic illness and life transitions.

For more information about launching a support group, check out this recent article in Quest magazine.

Feel free to comment here or on our Facebook page. If you facilitate a support group and want to be part of the conversation, contact us.