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  • Media Representation: Do you see your life reflected in popular media?

    Media Representation: Do you see your life reflected in popular media?

    Do you see images of yourself reflected in popular media? As a person with a chronic health condition and/or disability, is your life reflected in movies, television, print, or social media?

    In this themed podcast episode you’ll hear from Christophe Zajac-Denek — an actor, musician, surfer, skateboarder, and little person — whose podcast, I’m Kind of a Big Deal, explores the unique lives of people with dwarfism. Christophe has worked in Hollywood movies for 11 years but rarely do you see his face.

    Lindsey Kizer, recently diagnosed with narcolepsy, appeared in an earlier podcast episode. Her experience of narcolepsy reflected in media has usually been a joke with the character falling asleep mid-sentence.

    John Poehler is a published author and award-winning blogger in Colorado. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1999, John’s memory of mainstream media’s representation of people with bipolar disorder was far from accurate.

    Daniel G. Garza, an HIV/AIDS patient leader, advocate, and educator talks about the first movie where he saw characters portrayed with HIV/AIDS. Daniel has a blog/podcast and YouTube channel.

    Ania Flatau, an avid dancer born with spina bifida, was featured in a previous podcast episode, Ania has never seen spina bifida represented in popular movies or television but she is quite proud of a certain wheelchair skater, Aaron Fotheringham.

    For those with myotonic dystrophy, like myself, all we have is this documentary, Extremis.

    Transcript

    welcome to glass half full with leslie krongold she shares her stories experiences and knowledge of living and coping with a chronic health condition learn about tools and resources and hear inspirational interviews that help you to live a life filled with quality and dignity with two decades of support group leadership leslie’s ready to help you make lemonade out of life’s lemons are you ready are you ready welcome to the glass apple it’s our first episode for 2021 took a little break no vacation just working on social media the website search engine optimization oh so many things behind the scenes but we’re back this episode is all about how we’re represented in popular media on television in movies print and social media whether we have a chronic illness a disease and or disability are we seeing ourselves reflected in popular media i know i’m not i think i can safely say i’ve never seen a character with myotonic dystrophy on a tv show or in a movie well there is a documentary it’s called extremists extremists extremists and it’s about a palliative care doctor and one of her dying patients has myotonic dystrophy it was incredibly painful to watch and several years ago there was a tv medical drama called royal pains i didn’t watch this series but i saw facebook posts from people in my patient community that there was an episode that mentioned myotonic dystrophy so i mean sure i found that episode i uh i marched it only to be let down it mitotic dystrophy was mentioned as a possible diagnosis for a patient i don’t even think you saw the patient but it was quickly discounted so like you could sneeze and miss the whole thing so again to thinking about the power of medium representation over the last few months i’ve interviewed a few people people with different health conditions or disabilities to hear if they felt represented in popular media the first person you’ll hear from is Christophe Zajac-Denek that’s a hyphenated last name not just multi-syllabic i met kristoff at a virtual podcast conference he’s originally from detroit but because of his avid interest in surfing skateboarding and punk rock he made his way to southern california Christophe identifies as a little person and has a podcast called i’m really a big deal he shared with me that there are between 200 and 250 different types of dwarfism and people exhibit different symptoms depending on which type of dwarfism they have the condition that Christophe has is called cartilage hair hypoplasia in your lifetime how have you seen the media change in the representation of little people and when when did the term little people become i’m assuming it’s acceptable yeah like are people that you met in your community do any people resent that term or is it a term that came out of your community sure yeah those those are really important questions the tour i’ll start with the term little person the term little person is acceptable um you could also say dwarf however when i’ve posed this to guests on my show some of them have strong feelings

    in us in a way that they don’t that doesn’t define them and so they don’t want to be called a little person or a dwarf they just want to be called by their name and just like we all do you know your condition does not define who you are so in that same breath that’s the same with us you know little person is it’s it’s fine it’s pc so is dwarf you know um [ _ ] or the m word as people refer to it as is not okay um you know but words are just words in a in a sense and if if somebody actually wants to come up and have a conversation with me and say you know if they were to call me a [ _ ] or something like that and i wanted to if i saw value in the in the conversation or you know where where this was somebody that was just maybe misdirected or something like that and even if they’re not you know it’s still okay to say hey that’s offensive and that’s not all right to call somebody out like that my name is Christophe in fact another guest on my show does that and he is incredibly brave um whether they call him out as an offensive term or not he will go up to people and say hey you know the proper terminology is this but also my name is joseph and it’s nice to meet you and i was born this way and he interacts with kids on this level and i i never would be i i’ve never been able to do that before you know maybe this past year or two because you know it’s still accepting yourself and all of my friends that i’ve shown that to as well they’re like that’s so cool i don’t know that i got the balls to do that just to you know go up to a mother and a child and to confront the situation and and because with each situation that passes if it’s not rectified or if there isn’t some sort of positive interaction or a teaching moment or something like that that’s a moment that’s lost and that’s another moment that goes by where it’s okay to maintain confusion about how to interact with us or other people with disability you know and to me the whole reason why we have that is because the media doesn’t include us you know i’ve worked a lot of show i’ve worked in hollywood for 11 years and you’ve seen my face once maybe twice you know and it’s not because i haven’t worked it’s because hollywood covers me up for everything you know my face is covered in prosthetics or makeup or just costumes and masks and crazy wardrobe and things like that and trust me i want to do that stuff because it’s fun and i can do that stuff and i need the work so please pay me but also you know you just complimented me on my face and i’m not searching for compliments but i’m not this disgustingly grotesque object that seen in a commercial or in and i’m not saying myself i’m saying all of us you know everyone everyone that meets my friends with dwarfism think that they’re incredible they’re like your friend is so cool how they’re so awesome i never you know knew another little person before them or you know before you or whatever and it’s the personality that shines through right and that becomes inaccessible when little people are hired as props or just warm bodies to move around a costume or some foam or something like that and so that’s how i see how society sees us you know and it’s taken me a long time to figure that out because remember how i said i would get paid you know 10 to 100 times as much you know in a costume as i would get playing music well there’s the there’s the hook right there right money but then once you start to think about it and you you’re thinking okay well i’m i’m not getting any equity on my face or my skill because i’m in a costume they could have hired anybody and there’s just a list and if whoever said the first yes is going to get the job so it doesn’t matter you know what i look like in that regard and i think that that’s sad and i i do think some stuff in hollywood is turning around for the better with that i mean peter dinklage is blazing a trail and he’s awesome and i’m i’m really proud of him and what he’s done and the station agent i love that you mentioned that film that film is is incredible that when i first saw that i was thinking who knew who knew about me this is crazy it’s actually i’ve identified with that so much and just more of that is what i think we need and you know even when there are certain things that in my eyes are exploitative i still see there’s a part of me that still sees value in you know like the little women of la and dallas in new york and stuff i mean it’s a reality show so there’s going to be ridiculous drama and things going on but still you get to see little people you know it’s it’s not i i don’t see that as steps backwards i see it as steps forward even though it’s it it’s this fantastic thing and it’s it’s reality tv and stuff like that i i respect that there’s a show that that shows us you know and and because you have to work on opening the door somehow and i think that you know what tara created is important and it’s good and it’s gotten attention of a lot of people the next person i spoke with is Lindsey Kizer in north carolina Lindsey appeared in an earlier podcast episode about coping with COVID she was diagnosed over a year ago with narcolepsy what do you think the biggest misconception people have about narcolepsy you know whether it’s friends or family members just in general i think you know most people think it is like what you see on tv you know where someone can be you know mid-sentence or you know doing whatever normal activities and they just in an instant fall asleep out of nowhere and that’s not how it happens at all you know i don’t really know where that has come from um because even that’s not even something recent as far as the past few years you know that’s been over time and it’s you know being diagnosed i really saw how people really believe that you know co-workers not really friends because they had kind of seen some of the progression up into up to my diagnosis but i’d even say acquaintances and even you know new co-workers and people that had met me after when i say have narcolepsy i get the question either what is that or wait so you’re just gonna fall asleep while you’re talking to me that question would make my would make me cringe so bad for so long how does popular media tv television books and you know i guess social media too how how do they portray narcolepsy i mean it for most people it’s a joke um you know one of the first movies that anyone ever mentions is always deuce bigelow um and he goes on the date with the girl and she just you know middle of dinner after he drops her off at the house you know she’s falling asleep out of nowhere and that really is the image for a lot of people that you know i’m gonna be talking to him or sitting at dinner and i’m just gonna fall asleep you know my face will be in my food um you know i’ll fall and hit my head something like that and a lot of them after they you know spend time with me you know they do realize that that’s not true or some of the ones that you know had that perception and had no idea i had narcolepsy you know that does change social media i do think is starting to do a really good job especially thanks to some of the organizations at trying to correct that narrative because there are a lot of people that are very outspoken about that not being the truth on social media and i do think that’s starting to but that’s definitely a big mountain to climb because it has been something that’s you know been drilled into people’s heads for many years thanks to movies tv shows and who knows where this idea came from well you know i i never saw deuce bigelow um but i did see rumblefish did you see that okay i have to interrupt for a moment now i’ve since realized it was not rumblefish i saw i mean i didn’t see that movie and it’s by the same director gus van zant but it’s his other movie my own private idaho from 1991 which features the actor river phoenix as a character with narcolepsy it’s older than deuce bigelow so maybe that’s why you haven’t seen it okay and and that was the first time i think it was river phoenix who was in it do you know who he is i have heard the name i could not think of that face off the hell in my head right now well he’s uh he’s since deceased but he is or was joaquin phoenix’s brother i guess his older brother and he was in a movie um gus Van Zant i think that’s the filmmaker and it was very it was kind of an art house movie so it’s very attractive to visuals but he river phoenix’s character did have narcolepsy and for me that was the uh first time i ever heard of the condition and i was probably in high school or college so it could be like 30 years old the movie so maybe but it was a drama and then so it wasn’t you know i it would be interesting for you to see it and then tell me what you uh what your take on the portrayal is because i i’m sure it was a bit more empathetic than a you know comedy like so many fallen you know their head in the soup or something i definitely will have to check it out because i have not seen it come up you know most of the tv and movie portrayals of it it is more of you know a comedy show or movie so that definitely would be interesting to see you know if it does have more of an accurate portrayal for sure back in october of 2019 oh so long ago when we traveled freely i went a trip to las vegas to attend the health conference i went from wego health it was a huge conference and it’s hard to imagine being in a crowd like that now but i got to meet other patient leaders from all over the country and one of those patient leaders is John Poehler john lives in fort collins colorado and he wrote a book which was published in 2020 it’s called this war within my mind based on the blog the bipolar battle i think it was right before christmas that i talked with john via zoom and we were both well bundled for the cold anyhow john really stood out for me at the conference he’s very warm and friendly so i have looked forward to including him in this podcast so you were diagnosed in 99 right right yeah so in the 21 years how have you experienced people’s reaction and understanding uh to bipolar condition you know when you when you talk to people has do you feel like people are more understanding now than when you first were diagnosed oh definitely definitely beyond the shadow of a doubt because when i was first diagnosed i know a lot of people when they are diagnosed they kind of they deny it at first they’re like oh my gosh why me i was actually really excited about it because i’d been searching for answers for a few years and so to finally have a doctor say john this is what you have and it matches up completely and not only do you have this but we can manage it it’s not like a death sentence or anything we can we just need to find the right treatment for you and so i shared it with a lot of my friends my family and so forth but i found out real quick that especially back then there was a huge stigma i lost a ton of friends um and i just i had a lot of bad experiences with broken friendships relationships because of my illness and actually i haven’t really been open about it until the past i started my blog at the beginning of 2017 and that’s when i just decided i’m gonna tell everybody you know i don’t it doesn’t matter to me anymore and i actually have a good response and that’s why you know when we met last year in las vegas you know getting that award on twitter that was really showed me wow people are starting to understand more and you know there wasn’t a wego health back when i was diagnosed there weren’t any of these huge organizations that you see now and so it’s it’s definitely a lot less i feel a lot less stigma compared to the way it was back then you know i don’t necessarily think like in you know mainstream media i don’t feel like it’s portrayed as accurately as it could but i mean it’s better than it was back then how has the media in popular media whether television books movies uh celebrities you know coming out how how has it changed over the years from my perspective just from what i’ve you know i’ve experienced when i was first diagnosed i tried to watch a bunch of the movies that you know portrayed characters that had bipolar disorder and i couldn’t relate to any of them at all it just seemed like they were more stereotypes of what someone with bipolar disorder lives with and the past few years i’ve seen a bunch of new movies come out and they’re getting closer but in terms of portraying portraying us as a character on tv i haven’t really been too excited with what i’ve seen there’s one movie i’ve seen that the director he has bipolar disorder and he acts in it and it’s an independent film and i saw it last year i previewed it and that’s probably the closest that i could relate to because it was from his story it was based on his life and i totally could relate to that so it’s come a long ways that’s for sure in terms of like actors actresses um people on the you know that you hear who are some examples of kanye west yeah yeah that’s i’m yeah that you know yeah that’s kanye west i know he i know he has bipolar disorder and it’s you know i i feel bad for him because you know i could you can see that he’s suffering and we have i have no idea obviously we don’t have any idea about personally what’s going on with him but seeing his outbursts and stuff i mean i can relate to some of how he’s acted so in terms of the reality of what like untreated bipolar disorder looks like i think that you know that he’s an example of that um but there’s others too there’s a there’s a gentleman on a general hospital in maurice something i’ve man i wish i don’t remember the name names too well but he’s a i i’ve i’ve heard him speak and i’ve read articles in bipolar the bp hope and he is great like he speaks out and i really like what he does so the the actor is on the as bipolar but not yeah yeah oh okay yeah he actually has and i think they put it in the script i’m not sure but in terms of him and talking about it it’s for me it’s it’s awesome to see someone in a light like that that has you know so many followers so many people that he’s in the spotlight and he feels so comfortable just talking about mental health bipolar disorder that’s i think that’s a lot different than way back when but then of course you know we can’t leave out carrie fisher i mean she was uh she’s been you know spokesman spokeswoman since the very beginning so and she’s been always just so cool so yeah no i always forget that uh she did come out at some for me i think the most you know just as terms in terms of a character the main one i think about is from homeland claire danes yeah you know you know how different communities i’m i’m jewish and you know when something comes out in the media and people always go is it good for the jews is it bad for the jews so i always think that different sort of minority communities do that you know so was that portrayal how did people in the bipolar community was there talk about her character and there was actually i think she actually uh spoke with uh influencer at some somebody who has bipolar disorder and kind of got she she was consulted by her and uh supposedly she used that to for character or whatnot but a lot of people that i spoke with thought that they did they didn’t portray it as well in the actual script you know as her as a character as an actress i i think she does an awesome job with it you know but she’s not the one writing the script you know and i don’t i think some of the storyline it just doesn’t really drive and make sense with some things like uh she was she stopped her medication and then she got psychotic and manic and like she took her meds again and she was fine like the next day and that’s completely you know i mean you know it’s like these meds don’t just kick in like that and it’s like oh a day later i feel 100 you know so you know just things like that so but i think it’s good that they you know the consensus from everybody i’ve talked to is the same it’s you know it’s nice seeing characters in actual the you know on screen that they’re trying to portray bipolar disorder which is you know really good i haven’t met Daniel G. Garza in person but i’ve seen him virtually many times daniel has been a long time patient leader advocate and educator for hiv aids he has a very impressive resume he’s a board of director for a health center an ambassador for a number of non-profit organizations winner of the hero of hope award for patient advocacy from ipain international foundation as well as having a number of media outlets his own podcast youtube facebook live daniel has a lot going on so this is just an excerpt from our recent zoom conversation you’ll hear more from daniel in a future podcast episode he represents two patient communities those with hiv aids and anal cancer what are your feelings about how popular media has represented you know hiv aids people with hiv aids and or people with cancer and in particular you know anal cancer i think let’s let’s say aids i think aids for a long time aids was just death people just died and one of the very first movies that i ever saw about aids was a movie called it’s my party with um eric roberts uh gregory hunt griffin heinz i think it’s rare anyway he was on on gonzo anyway uh Margaret Cho in it uh uh john is in it there’s a lot of great actors in the movie and it was about how men of that time who were positive and were dying would commit suicide and right so that their families could collect the insurance com money but they would make it seem such a natural debt so that the families would like the insurance and that was one of the first movies um interesting enough my mom and i got to see that movie together when i was really sick in spanish so after i was diagnosed her and i was it was on tv in south texas in spanish and she watched it with me and that changed her view on hiv i think media also print if you open a magazine and you see a medication for hiv and aids they always pick the most beautiful buff guys and they’re out hiking looking at the sunset and it’s so pretty but it’s not always like that medications doesn’t always no um i i think we could do a lot better i think we could do a lot more i think that we need more latino we need more spanish information out there medication doesn’t medication is good for your body but it doesn’t always make you feel great and i hope people can understand that difference like it’s good for me i know my medications are good for me i know they’ve made me strong i have a strong immune system my t-cell count is undetectable i have great hair like everything’s good but it doesn’t always make you feel great there are complications even after all these years of medication there are days when you know diarrhea happens or constipations happen or your mood swings and and i think we need to talk to people about that i i think we lost a little bit of the fear that we had for HIV um back and and people got very like oh there’s a pill like i can no yes yes there is a pill but this is not a club that i want you to join just because it’s not that bad um it it is that bad it is it it affects your mood it affects your relationships um for some people it affects your your vision of your future there are still people in 2020 that i know of who have not told their families that they’re HIV positive there are people who hide their medications in aspirin bottles so that their family doesn’t know that they have HIV so no it’s it’s yes we’ve moved a lot forward in treatment and in services but we we haven’t let people catch up yet and i think that’s where we need that in media we need that representation out there um cancer man um i think anal cancer

    is the butt of the joke and all this i think we don’t talk about it like we we should and i and i’m also guilty but i should i as a um anal cancer survivor i should be more aware of what i talk about and how i talk about it and what i say out there um and i don’t do it mainly because HIV has always been my main focus but it’s connected and i should be more of that and i think and please anybody watching or listening this is not bulletin belittling any other cancers but i think breast cancer has always been up front breast cancer has always been like the main cause that a lot of people go to when they when you hear cancer i think a lot of people go to breast cancer and then everything else falls behind nobody intended uh but i started a facebook page for us to me men with ostomy bags and

    there’s there’s lack of communication in the group i i don’t i haven’t figured out how to get people or gentlemen to talk about it it’s very difficult to get the conversations going because um cancer affects a whole lot it doesn’t just affect your body it’s body mind and soul cancer as a gay man has affected my relationship with my partner not just emotional but physical intimacy not on his end it’s all me because i i put barriers and i set up walls uh because i haven’t had a chance to sit down with other to be very specific to with other gay anal cancer survivors and go how does this affect you with your relationship how does it affect you sexually uh how do you see your body now my last guest for this episode is Ania Flatau who you may remember from the last podcast episode about dance Ania lives in southern california is an avid dancer and was born with spina bifida have you seen you know growing up or now as an adult any images of people with spina bifida they you know had an impact on you positive or negative oof um you know not really like i mentioned like in the the spinal in spinal disability spinal cord injury world i’m growing up i saw a lot of images and and like there’s even a show on tv called push girls oh yeah like all of the representation i saw growing up was people with um spinal cord injuries and um you know i grew up thinking that it was because people like people who are in the mainstream society kind of look at spinal cord injuries as like for lack of a better term sexier than spina bifida so like their stories like they they relate more to the stories of people who’ve gone through trauma than they do you know somebody who’s going to talk to you about like a neural tube defect you know and i was born with blah blah blah blah that’s how i grow up grew up thinking and um i never really saw a lot of images of like influencers with spina bifida and that’s why i feel like it’s so important for like when people with spina bifida have like their conferences and their get-togethers for people with spina bifida that they realize that like even if you’re like not an influencer and you’re not famous because you lived your life with spina bifida and you you work and you you you live your life and and do it to the best of your ability you are an influencer you don’t have to be on tv to be an influencer as long as you’re living a life and and doing something that someone behind behind the lens is looking at and going like i want to do that you are an influencer and you are making an impact um in somebody’s life i’ll give you a quick story so when i graduated from college right um i brought my friend with me who has cerebral palsy and he was struggling with the thought like do i go to school do i not go to school just the fact that he saw me graduate and that i had my diploma in my hand was enough for him to go i’m going i’m going to college like this is what i’m going gonna do and that’s what i mean like you never know who’s looking and you never know who’s like watching every step that you make and is drawing inspiration from what you do yeah i think that like you really don’t have to have that i’m famous label to be of influence every single one of us has that ability that’s my answer to that question um i think that like even though we’re not on tv it’s okay because there will be somebody in your immediate community that is going to make you go that is freaking cool i want to do that you know like you know like well okay i lied there is aaron fathering him aaron fatheringham has spina bifida and you know he’s competed in nitro circus and he’s definitely made a name for himself so he definitely is i haven’t heard of him what does he do no he doesn’t he’s a i mean i’ll google it but yeah he does um it’s i can’t remember the specific name for it but basically it’s like wheelchair skateboarding so if you if you look up nitro circus it’s this massive um like extreme sports um i don’t even know like competition like they have biking and and skateboarding and like they do all these massive tricks and he’s one of those people that like like he was the first person in a wheelchair to do a backflip on a massive like really massive skate skate ramp wow so yeah he is definitely one of those one of those people who is like you know he’s made a name for himself and and you know you throw his name out there and you have spina bifida like 90 90 of us are gonna know who he is um yeah that guy’s crazy but um i mean i would never do it but i definitely see him and i go okay he’s he’s living his best life so why can’t i you know what i mean like whatever that whatever that definition is for you just live your best life is like i think that that’s the point of being an influencer is like seeing somebody killing it and you being like i can do that too you know well i think i can say that none of us seem to be thrilled with how we’re represented in popular media about a week ago i was on a community we go health zoom call and a woman on the autism spectrum urged all of us on the call to boycott a movie i wasn’t familiar with this so i googled it and the movie is called music and sia the musical performer is the director apparently many in the autism community find the yet to be released film offensive it includes spirit stereotypes and they’re upset that the character is played by an actress who is neurotypical of course i can’t comment on any of this since i know few facts but i invite any filmmaker or writer to include a character with my atonic dystrophy in their next creative work and i won’t mind you know if elizabeth moss amanda pete or kate planned [ __ ] play her or me

    thank you for listening to glass half full leslie invites you to leave a rating and review on iTunes this helps spread the word to others dealing with chronic health issues for show notes updates and more visit the website glass half full dot online class half full dot online

  • Put a Pink Ribbon on this Comic, Actress, Playwright, and Teacher

    October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Meet Susan Jeremy — Comic, Actress, Playwright, and Teacher — and breast cancer survivor.

    She’s also an old friend from my college days. We reminisce about way back when…as well as hear about Susan’s unfortunate experience at a New York medical clinic where she was told, “You’re over 40, it’s a cyst. Take aspirin.” The tumor grew.

    Susan’s diagnosis and treatment led her to make life changes. She became one of the 48 teachers in Manhattan working directly with medically-challenged students; 80% of them undergoing chemotherapy.

    Eventually, she wrote and starred in her one-woman show, Teacher in the House. While her performance schedule is impacted due to COVID, you can enjoy her dancing and character sketches on Tik Tok.

    For additional podcast episodes with breast cancer survivors, visit this page.

  • The Power of Prayer

    The Power of Prayer

    What is prayer and how do we do it? How does prayer differ from meditation? How can prayer impact healing? These are a few of the questions addressed by three podcast guests. The Jewish perspective of prayer from a rabbi who has faced cancer and chronic pain. The Christian perspective of prayer from a Baptist pastor whose late wife battled autoimmune disease and young son is in remission from cancer. And the perspective of a yoga therapist who has studied Christian mysticism.

    To learn more about the Unity World Day of Prayer (September 12), visit their website.

    Guests featured in this podcast episode are Molly Lannon Kenny, Rabbi Robin Leonard Nafshi, and Pastor Jay Holland.

    An earlier podcast episode is with Dr. Lamar Hardwick – The Autism Pastor.

    Transcript

    welcome to glass half full with leslie krongold she shares her stories experiences and knowledge of living and coping with a chronic health condition learn about tools and resources and hear inspirational interviews that help you to live a life filled with quality and dignity with two decades of support group leadership leslie’s ready to help you make lemonade out of life’s lemons are you ready you ready welcome to the glass half full podcast if this is your first time listening i hope you’ll check out some of the episodes from the past three and a half years this is our 75th episode if something you hear resonates for you then it’s quite possible that many of the previous episodes have something to offer you as well i’ve wanted to tackle this topic of prayer for a while in fact we certainly have talked about the power of faith and prayer in other episodes a couple of years ago i spoke with the autism pastor dr lamar hardwick in georgia and in one of our caregiver themed episodes we spoke about faith but we’ve never focused specifically on the power of prayer i chose now because thursday september 12th next week is designated as the unity world day of prayer this happens every year but i was able to plan ahead this time so on september 12th for 24 hours there are activities you can engage in either virtually on the internet or perhaps in your local community you’ll have to check out the links i’ve included on the glass apple website to learn more so for this episode i spoke with three people about prayer i’m often curious about the differences between prayer and meditation two of my guests address this the first guest is molly lennon kenny who is a yoga therapist teacher writer you’ll learn more about molly in a later interview i was reading her book to prepare for my interview with her about bedside yoga something she’s been doing for nearly 20 years and i realized during the interview that she’d be the perfect person to reflect on the similarities between prayer and meditation

    the second person i interviewed is an old friend from college new york university rabbi ramen letter nafshi i can’t recall what robin was studying in college but she went to law school soon after her undergraduate time and for years robin worked for nolo press writing self-help legal books here in san francisco she was active in a local synagogue and was a big help to me when i made my documentary film on women rabbis but at that time she wasn’t a rabbi and i don’t even know if it was something she was considering the last guest i have is a man i met recently at a podcast conference i attended in orlando florida we were at a speed networking event for podcasters it was insane and very loud in the hotel ballroom but jay holland stood out he didn’t introduce himself at the time as a pastor but he made great eye contact and shared with me how his son had battled cancer so i’d like you to sit back and relax and i promise you a very thoughtful and heartfelt show it’s a little longer than many of the previous podcast episodes but it’s worth it before you meet molly let me tell you that i did meet her in person several years ago i attended the northwest yoga conference in seattle and she taught one of the extended sessions i i can’t tell you the name of the session but i remember really liking her so i bought her book skip ahead for so years and i noticed a post she wrote in an accessible yoga facebook group i’m in this is in the last couple of months i saw this she was promoting a bedside yoga program that she was teaching and that piqued my interest and i got in touch with her so this fall you’ll learn more about her work in her conversation she told me how she had just graduated from the living school for action and contemplation which explores the heritage of faith from the christian mystical tradition and i know this sounds unusual but it will make sense once you hear the interview but molly’s sister had recently passed away before she attended this program living school for action and contemplation

    if we’re coming from the yoga side we understand this is completely different and i would also say a lot of where my work is moving into especially after having finished this two-year program with father richard rohr is i think a lot of times in the yoga world we are like we’ve sort of run away from and kind of eschewed anything that smacks of abrahamic religiosity or like the judeo-christian religions that most of us grew up in so we’re kind of we kind of steer clear of those so i think from that side when we when we think about meditation we think of meditation and prayer as being something totally different and in many ways prayer is something that we wouldn’t do or we wouldn’t facilitate from the yoga side i actually don’t think that’s true or correct um and i think that also in different traditions so for example in christian mysticism what they might call prayer in many ways like centering prayer for example is uh one of the primary practices of christian mysticism centering prayer is essentially meditation open meditation right but they just use different they use a different term for it so i think it really i think it’s a lot about defining what those terms mean i think also a lot of us who grew up with prayer we still tend to think of petitionary prayer like you know please god like make my mom get better or let this tumor go away or you know whatever it might be those kinds of prayer whereas mystic prayer is more um i would say it ends up being more on the listening side of really sort of listening to the still small listening for the still small voice of god um or when i was just when i was just at my i just graduated my program last week and so i was up in albuquerque with my cohort and one of the people in my group was saying i hate when you know when i want people to pray for me i hate asking them because i feel like why should you be praying for me you know there’s so many other people who need to be prayed for and all of this kind of thing and and i shared with him that i had had an episode on my way to albuquerque um where i’ve been reading texts from my sister that were still on my phone and they actually it wasn’t a positive idea to do at the time and it sort of sent me into a panic attack i guess would be the closest that i could come to and i just um was changing flights and i was kind of losing it in the airport in the dallas airport to the extent that actually it’s a little embarrassing a little vulnerable to say but some of the people from the personnel from personnel from the airport came out and they were like are you okay you know do you need anything in that moment i texted two of my siblings my husband and my best childhood friend and i said you can’t do anything for me but can you just let me know that you’re there and my friends who were in at the living school with me had been talking about how he didn’t like when you know to ask people to pray for him they said well that’s that’s really what prayer is that like you’ve just defined prayer prayer is really the act of reaching out whether to a uh quote unquote real person a material person or to a divine presence and saying can you bear witness to my suffering so that i don’t hold it alone and i think that that is an extremely powerful and useful tool for for all of us to whether you know whatever way we want to define it or whatever religious orientation we might connect with or or push away um the idea of being able to just open ourselves up and ask that we are witnessed in our suffering is is a prayer modality that is extremely healing and useful i’ve already told you that i met robin years ago when we were in college she now lives in concord new hampshire and is in her 10th year as the rabbi for temple beth jacob a congregation of 200 families

    so what is prayer in judaism how how do jews pray when what is the importance and and what are the variety of ways that prayer is part of one’s life

    so in in traditional judaism a jew prays three times a day morning afternoon and evening and prayers are essentially made up of three kinds there are prayers that praise god or bless god there are prayers that thank god and then there are prayers that make requests of god and for most of our prayers outside the sabbath all three kinds are a part of the prayer service on the sabbath however prayers of request are generally removed from the prayer service the idea that the sabbath is a day of rest and if uh god rested on the seventh day when humans rest on the seventh day we continue to allow god to rest and so we don’t ask for prayers we don’t ask for things we don’t make requests of god the only exceptions and these are interesting are prayers for peace and prayers for healing we can ask those questions and ask for those things even on the sabbath so three types of prayers three times a day that we pray but that’s the formula and the formality of prayer i think prayer for jews is as individual as each jew is prayer can be a way to speak directly to the divine prayer can be a way to speak directly to oneself and particularly if one thinks that god is within prayer can even be an expression of aspiration what what i’m hoping for right when we pray for peace or may the one who makes peace in the high heavens brings peace to us we don’t know that there’s peace in high heaven we’re we’re hoping there is but it is what we aspire to on earth and for our own lives and for our family and community so we have lots of prayers for peace and again it’s not that we do it because we think each time we say it it’s gonna um it it’s either we’re frustrated because it feels empty because it’s not being there’s no response because there’s so much war and hatred in the world but again it’s something to which we aspire or it may be something to which we seek ourselves we also note that the word for peace shalom shares its root with the word for healing and wholeness which is schleimut and so really healing means to be at peace i i will often somebody tells me that their loved one is perhaps you know in hospice or dying and i’ll ask them if they want to be on our healing prayer list to which the person will say to me they’re not going to get better and you don’t need to put them on the list and i said a healing prayer is not is not about curing healing and curing are two different things one can be healed by dying at peace with the illness one’s had or the cancer or being able to leave one’s loved ones behind or whatever it is that is that is a peaceful you know a way of healing and bringing about peace but that’s not curing those are two very different things and we don’t pray for curing when when when someone is sick we pray for a refuga is like a complete and whole healing so it’s complete you know completeness and wholeness and health and all wrapped up in that sense of peace so the idea of praying for peace with you know where the person is at not necessarily some sort of miraculous cure there’s like that rational mind knowing that that perhaps can’t happen we’re not looking for magic exactly exactly we’re looking for acceptance we’re looking for you know it’s it’s sort of what i think i don’t remember who wrote about it but somebody wrote about the good death right where you know where you have this sense of i’m not in a place of regret i’m not i don’t have um unfinished business i’m not leaving relationships ugly you know all of those kinds of things where you you come to where you’re completely at peace with with the diagnosis and your ex you have an acceptance of it and you know you you’re able to move forward in a place where there’s really a sense of peace and wholeness to you um but but you know that isn’t to say that when somebody has a kind of you know a chronic condition um which isn’t necessarily a death sentence that is the you know those kinds of prayers for peace are for remission their prayers for a particular course of treatment to work successfully even if we know that the person will come in and out of uh flare-ups to their illness um we still pray for you know you know sort of the receding of the of the uh of the condition you know so yes we can we can ask for things that seem not miraculous but i think most people pray quite frankly for themselves whether or not they’re seeking a connection to the divine prayer helps a person feel centered prayer can help a person feel of that sense of peace many people and i think this is really interesting with the yoga practitioner is that you know peace and prayer and meditation often for some are one of the same and they wake up in the morning and they have a practice that involves prayer and it involves breathing and it involves maybe yoga positions so you know it’s all along a continuum and particularly for those who are not traditional jews orthodox jews who who will wake up and say a set of recite a set of prayers that have been predetermined and and many of them you know that is a deep spiritual connection and they feel that connection to god by doing this and they feel that sense of wholeness and completion for others it feels like an empty recitation and they’re you know they do it because that’s what they’re supposed to do but they don’t always find meaning and i’ve had many a conversation with orthodox jewish friends who say sometimes like they admire the liberal denominations where you can focus on a particular prayer or a particular chant or something that brings you meaning in that moment without feeling like you have to go through a whole whitney of things just to get through them because somebody said you were supposed to do that what about community prayer as a community versus prayer alone or someone coming to you and you praying with them how are you what are the differences there so i think for for most people they are overwhelmed in a positive way when they think about the fact that a community is praying for them so people will very specifically say to me can you include my name on the healing list the prayer list i have three people on there in fact one had a stroke around the time she turned in her early 70s she just had her 80th birthday wow she’s probably yeah she’s probably about as far along as she’s going to get in her rehab she has to live in a nursing home probably for the rest of her life but truly knowing that people were praying for her every time we came together as a community and that we still do gives her so much uh joy and hope and possibility um that you know she’s taken up piano she’s taken up a little bit of painting you know she really has found reasons to live and and it helps her so much knowing that her community is praying for her every week every week every time we join together in a prayer service so it’s fascinating and and fabulous to me and i and i have some other congregants similar i have one who has chronic liver disease and she is on registries and lists waiting for a liver transplant she goes for um treatment three or four times a week um and she is you know she too loves coming to synagogue when she’s able to which she’s usually not she’s usually able to she’s usually so exhausted but it gives her strength feeling and knowing that her community is praying for her and even people in a communal setting where they may say a loved one’s name silently so it’s not even said out loud or they say their own name silently there’s this sense for many people that all of these voices together rise up to some place you know the source the divine call it god whatever and from there goes out into the universe and brings healing to all those in the universe who are in need of healing so many many many people nowadays come to synagogue to say a healing prayer whereas a generation or two ago they would come on the anniversary of the death of a loved one now it’s more to say a healing prayer for their loved one i was reading something yesterday uh because i’m trying to do a little research you know like actual scientific studies um about the power of prayer and i was introduced to the term and i don’t have it in front of me so i may be mispronouncing it intercessory prayer yeah yes you’ve got it intercessory prayer it’s that is where you’re praying for people when they don’t know you’re praying for them and the the the attempt is to figure out if it makes a difference in a person’s life are they going to be cured or healed or whatever measurement the uh whoever is doing the study uses when people who you don’t know we’re praying for you pray for you it’s very controversial as to whether or not uh there is a success rate to it you know someone will point out oh well this showed you know more people with cancer were healed or went into remission than in another study the overwhelming majority of studies show no difference at all and i think that’s partly because for people to get a sense of healing or feel an improvement and therefore then report an improvement they need to know they’re being prayed for so as soon as you add that element to it then most definitely the rate of reported healing or feeling better or even possible cure or remission tends to go up because i think people do really benefit from knowing people are praying for them it’s when you do it without their knowledge is a very controversial part of it of whether or not it’s really has any efficacy i’m glad you’re familiar with that you see you’re very i when i was in rabbinical school i did an independent study with a theology professor on and it was entitled you know why pray for healing and so it was all about it was partially about intercessory prayer but it was also about communal prayer and individual prayer and why we pray you know why go into a hospital room and stand by the side of a bed and ask a person if you can pray for them or you can join them in prayer and pray together why do that why do it in a communal setting all of that and i was trying to i was exploring in that paper of whether i could come up with a theological reason for it and i ultimately decided that no i could not because it was so incredibly individual whereas you know someone was seeking god and someone was seeking community and someone was seeking not to be alone i mean they just wanted to know that somebody cared about them and loved them and held them in their hearts and were willing to pray for them and it was just a way to counter loneliness which i think anybody who has had any kind of a chronic condition a debilitating condition knows exactly what the loneliness of illness is

    so it just happens that i have a history with you but you’re certainly the right person to talk to about all this oh great

    yeah this has been a great interest of mine for a very long time before i moved up to new hampshire i was both a part-time rabbi in a synagogue and i was also a rabbi chaplain for a jewish healing center across three counties in new jersey so i’ve done a lot of this i i’ve worked as a hospice chaplain i’ve i’ve done a lot of it i’ve thought a lot about it i’ve researched it it’s so i mean prayer in general is so individual and i think praying for healing does even more so and i think it’s more so because each one of us reacts to illness so differently so many of us are private people we don’t i remember a member of my congregation a number of years ago had breast cancer she did not want anyone in the congregation to know she did not want to be on the healing list right so i actually keep on the healing list like initials at the bottom where you wouldn’t where nobody would know who they are they you know like say rc maybe there’s probably you know a bunch of people in the community now with the initials rc and it doesn’t even have to be from the congregation that can be somebody i know of and you know in in my family or in you know somebody else who’s just said you know please pray for my uncle richard who doesn’t want to be announced publicly anywhere but so i’ll have those initials down there and i and i will do that with people because even though they don’t want the community to know and they’re very private people they still benefited from knowing that someone was praying for them that someone held them in their heart and you know asked literally asked god for healing each you know so it’s very very very powerful but so individual and it’s so hard to generalize therefore you know you and and we want to allow people to have their prayer life reflect who they are um and especially in a time of illness when everything else in your life is generally not in your control if you’re sitting in a hospital bed everybody else controls you know who comes in when when they poke you when they take your temperature when they do everything when they feed you what you eat everything so if there’s something about it that you can control uh it’s very powerful so being being prayed for by whom when in what capacity is often just the smallest thing to give a person control over well for how how about this um i don’t know what the best term would be i want to say disbeliever that that sounds so negative but someone who is identifies as atheist or agnostic and they’re certainly you know cultural jews or jews who no longer identify as jews but are so jewish have have you had any experience where you know they’re in a time of grieving whether for themselves or some other suffering and they can’t pray but perhaps they are more open to you know meditation or other forms of energy that are less oh oh definitely definitely and that’s where i also as i know somebody i try to either characterize prayer or where the prayer is directed in a way that might resonate with them so as one person once said to me who had a absolutely no belief in god and this was just a general conversation about prayer he said to me you know when i come to synagogue and i say the words of the prayers it’s not because i believe them to be literal he said i just think it adds to the source of energy in the universe that then goes out and touches each one of us she said i don’t think there’s any kind of divine who’s directing it or taking it all in and sending it back out but i do believe in sort of universal energy that our prayers can be added to that energy and so you know when i say the words of a prayer i don’t take the any of the god language literally another person said to me in our house we just add an extra oh and instead of god we think in terms of goodness and so when we pray we’re praying for the good and the well-being of each person we’re praying for goodness in our world and he said and that’s how we practice our judaism you know very active member of the synagogue um it’s it’s not that it keeps anybody from being connected but they’ve made peace with where they have where they are theologically when they have no no belief in god or no sense of god but it doesn’t mean they’re not gonna not gonna participate in prayer because they they recognize and i try to teach that that prayer that prayer is metaphor and i’m not going to tell you what the metaphor is i want you to find it right because because again for each person the metaphor is going to be different that’s why i try to say that people recognize that prayer is often aspirational it’s not a reflection of the way we see the world to be in actuality i know you had your own health scare uh i’m not sure how many years ago but how did that impact you as a spiritual being how did it you know change your relationship to others who go through you know a health scare so um in 2011 i was diagnosed with endometrial cancer so that was one thing but i actually do have two chronic conditions as well so i live with health conditions and scares or you know going in and out of things all the time it has been a challenge to me at times it really has i mean i have to take my own advice sometimes and and think of the metaphor not think literally i remember one time a colleague of mine who was working on his doctorate in in in philosophy and theological philosophy and he asked the question of uh to a whole bunch of people ask the question of what are you most afraid of and the end you know people had you know the climate you know collapsing from climate change and nuclear war and you know all these sort of large catastrophes that could happen and i said to him you know i’m a rabbi and i have something called sjogren’s syndrome that weakens my joints it’s in the family with rheumatoid arthritis and lupus i said you know my biggest fear is my biggest fear is that one day i will open the ark and not be able to pick up the torah scroll that my health will be at some place where i can no longer do what i love to do or what helps me with my sense of identity in the world this is core to who i am and what i do and so prayer for me it’s not the miraculous stuff it’s really that schlemut that that i will have the wisdom to know what tasks to follow that my doctors will have it um that i will keep myself as strong and as possible that i can continue to do these kinds of things i mean i’ve already accepted the fact that the role of what we call hogba which is the person that lists the taurus role at the end of a torah reading i can’t do that i can’t lift it that high above so that the congregation can see it and turn around with it i’ve already given that up but just to pick it up out of the ark that’s what i want to continue to be able to do because my illness mostly affects my hands um that’s where i feel most of my joint pain i also have fibromyalgia so i suffer from muscular pain a lot as well i mean i just sort of have systemic pain throughout my body and so it is for me it is uh um you know a relationship with god who i do believe in who is a source of strength for me uh but really not so much that i expect god to quote unquote do the work but that i do that my loved ones are there for me that my medical providers continue to be wise and caring and things like that that i was going to say that’s the same thing i was seeking in prayer when i had cancer as well you’re open with your community i assume because you’re talking about it on a podcast yes i’m very i’m i’m very open with my community what sjogren’s is how it really differs from the other connective tissue autoimmune conditions is that it is dryness coupled with the muscle pain and the other joint pain and so i have severe dry mouth and dry eye and so every yom kippur i stand before the congregation and before the service begins i actually take a sip of water and i explain that i have an autoimmune condition in which i have severe dry mouth i have to drink or else i will not be able to function and then i talk about the obligation to fast but it is incumbent upon a person if for medical reasons that they must eat or drink that it will be a greater sin for them to fast than to eat or drink and then i recite a meditation prayer written by rabbi simko weintraub that is called a medication for one who cannot do a traditional fast and i offer it to anyone in the congregation who has to eat or drink over yom kippur

    jay holland the man i met at a podcast conference is the senior pastor at covenant fellowship baptist church in stuart florida he has a podcast called let’s parent on purpose i spoke with jay shortly before the hurricane dorian approached the bahamas

    so let’s say you meet someone in one of these you know events that has nothing to do with your church or your community and they find out you’re a pastor and they and they’ve never been affiliated with any sort of religious group and they ask you what is prayer how would you explain that i would say uh on just the most basic level prayer is talking to god it’s the way that that we interact with god um which is a pretty incredible privilege if you think about it i mean i it would take me a few weeks to get an appointment with the mayor of my little town here in stuart it would take me some real connections to meet the governor of florida and and i don’t even know how i could meet the president of the united states but the creator of the universe allows us to come before him anytime we want that’s a a humbling and awesome thing so prayer is prayer is talking to god and are there different ways to pray you know such as alone as a community silently reading scripture how about those different pathways sure yeah absolutely i think um you know when you ask other different ways to pray you think about your relationship with with anybody else are there different conversations that you’ll have with them you know i’ve been married for 12 years and and i love having really engaging conversations with my wife but sometimes i just like being by your side you know we sometimes our time off is just happily being next to one another enjoying the presence of each other even if we don’t have a lot to say so um you know i think prayer a really healthy way sometimes is you know if you don’t know what to pray uh realizing that the book of psalms in the bible it’s it’s a song book it was ancient israel’s song book to god and and most of them are prayers to god and what’s really interesting as you start to get into them is there was a lot of complaining and and i and i actually appreciate that that god found it worthwhile in in his scriptures to show us so many examples of prayer where people’s lives were very messed up where they could not see the other side um where they weren’t just giving god a bunch of false platitudes but they were saying god how long is this going to last i feel surrounded you know there’s one of them that psalm 88 that even ends with you know and darkness is my only friend so there’s some real depths of despair sometimes in prayer but i think i think some of those are the the greatest acts of faith that you can have because to to go to god and say i don’t know what’s going on i don’t trust you know i don’t even know how to trust right now but i trust enough to still come to you is is a pretty extreme act of faith so can you speak to the power of prayer as

    an action of practice for people who are going through

    some sort of chronic uh challenge be it emotional physical

    spiritual yeah absolutely as a matter of fact i can and give you uh just three examples and and and you feel free to use what’s helpful to you uh the first is i i this i’m actually in my second marriage my first marriage i married my high school sweetheart um after five years of dating right after we graduated from college and had a good happy marriage and you know had its bumps just like every young marriage does um that we really loved each other and were doing really well and then she came down with an autoimmune disease called ulcerative colitis and this girl who was full of faith and full of love you know spent days after days of misery and complete agony and every time we would try a treatment she would have an allergic reaction to it or something would go wrong and i mean that the number of different weeks we spent in the hospital and and between that just the number of weeks that she spent at home unable to go out unable to travel um you know there’s some real depression that hit in there and i remember one of the things that that christie would do is she would write out prayers and she would tape them all around the house so you know i would go to the bathroom and there would be prayers and bible verses taped up in there i would walk down the hallway like anywhere anywhere that you’d been it was like a breadcrumb of prayers of just calling out and hope and a lot of it was like lord i don’t understand what’s happening um i don’t know what you’re doing through this but but i still need you and um there’s some incredible comfort in that of of just realizing you know you don’t have all of the answers but you can go to the person who does now she ended up actually dying of the complications of that sickness and so that would be my my second one is um you know leading up to her death as a husband as a caregiver watching the the person i love so much just have everything go wrong there’s a there’s a lot of crying out to god in prayer but also just finding my strength and soulless in that time and i can tell you that just the regular disciplines of of going to god of making that a regular habit and not just going when things are bad but going on a normal basis uh those were things that that prepared me for when she died to be able to walk through that time it was almost like it was almost like in my life god had used her sickness to prepare me for the bombshell of being 27 years old and a widower and so you know i remember during that time just simple prayers of you know and i had a little three-year-old girl with her um and so it was like i i’m in a time where i remember one of my prayers during that time being god i just have a lot of decisions that i have to make but i am just so emotionally and spiritually drained i know i could make some very bad decisions that would affect me and my daughter right now and so god i’m just gonna i’m gonna walk in faith i don’t have enough strength to just sit and discern the right path in every way so i’m going to move and walk and lord i’m just going to ask that you close any door that might be harmful in my life and and i looking back see that god answered that and he did it over and over again not that i made every right decision but it was just amazing with hindsight how many doors he closed that would have been really foolish or harmful and so just as a caregiver of in that depths of loneliness uh a lot of complaining prayers but also gratitude and and thankfulness and how knowing that other people were praying for me and their actual prayers not just the knowledge of it but the fact that people were praying for me lifted my soul and helped me to move on and just gave me great healing able to just celebrate the life that we did have together and the fact that that you know christie is is dead on this earth but that she’s not dead that that she’s alive and with jesus and uh you know knowing that that’s not the last time we’ll see each other was was an incredible help it you know it didn’t make the day-to-day missing her easier but it it made it to where grief was not the monster that could completely consume my life and then the the third example that i would give you is uh just over five years ago in april of 2014 my little five-year-old boy elijah spiked a fever one weekend and on monday when we got him into the emergency room we found out that he had acute lymphoblastic leukemia and so you know from from that morning to mid afternoon that day just the complete floor fell out from underneath us but i even remember being in the back of the ambulance because we were in a little you know small town hospital emergency room and they said the ambulance is coming to take you to the children’s hospital in west palm beach and and i had just let two or three people know you know i’d let my pastor know and my parents and you know my wife was with me but just driving in that ambulance in the back and and starting to get texts from this friend saying hey tell elijah we’re praying for him hey tell elijah we’re praying for him and i feel like that just did not stop for three and a half years of um i i i don’t know that i don’t know that we win a day i know that we never went a day without somebody praying for us but i don’t know that we went a day without somebody reminding us that they were praying for us and um and god used that and i think one of the things that god does is it’s it’s hard to pray for somebody and then not get emotionally and spiritually invested in how they’re actually doing and so you know people would ask what can we do for you it’s like i don’t know you can’t cure my son from cancer so you know just pray and in praying they came up with things to do to help our family um i mean we it was like we went through an extreme makeover homeowner addition when we were down in the hospital we had we had people swarm into our house rip up all of the carpets lay down hardwood floors bought a new heating air conditioning system that had one of those uv lights in it to kill bacteria um i mean that like they they probably put 20 000 in remodeling in our house in the first two weeks that we were in the hospital and and i think all of that was really launched from prayer from just people lifting up to god you know lord help him and sustain this family and what can we do and then god puts things on their hearts and they and they walk so you know that’s the i think that’s one of the beauties of prayer is it’s not a one-way street i have never had god audibly speak back to me but i i mean my my life is just littered with the trail of god stepping in and speaking and you know i’ll sometimes lament about something in prayer and somebody will come along that day and give the answer that i was looking for and and even if i can’t like even if even if my prayers of that day you know like if god doesn’t answer it um sometimes i’m just able to let go because of being able to to just give it to god you know jesus has cast your burdens upon me and cast all your cares upon me and so being able to do that is uh it’s freeing like i don’t have to control the world and i don’t even have to control everything in my life i realize that that there’s somebody who loves me even more deeply than i love myself who i get to interact with and and to lay things at his feet and you know jesus told a parable about god the father saying you know which of you who’s a father if his son asked him for a fish would give him a snake and uh and saying if you being evil know how to do good things for your kids how much more of my heavenly father will do good for those who love him and so i just you know trusting that if i don’t see the answer that i’m looking for right now it’s because because in the grand scheme of things god has something bigger and greater and you know and i’ll be honest like i’ve been really really not happy with that answer in the moment but but over the course of my life you know given a little bit of depth and perspective i just i see the hand of god and what a joy to get to go to him not just when things are bad but also when things are good and when things are just normal you know like one thing about thinking you’re going to lose your son to cancer is is every day is a gift you know the most normal mundane day when nothing remarkable happens is an absolute treasure and remembering to go back and thank god for those treasures um is just something that that i think we fail to do quite often like you know when’s the last time you thanked god for your opposable thumbs well you know wait till you hurt one of them and then all of a sudden it’s a big deal but um we’re just so littered with gifts in our lives and and i think prayer lifts our soul

    and your son elijah five years right five years uh this august actually i think maybe the day we met leslie was was five years from the first cancer-free diagnosis that he had so we keep having celebrations and with his it’s actually five years post treatment before they consider the very uh he’s very high risk for relapse but you know every day we go on as a is another victory day and lowers the chances of relapse so we’ve got another two years of um that cloud kind of being over us but but it’s you know what i’ve got four kids and i’m not guaranteed tomorrow with any of them so elijah’s just the one that gives us perspective on all of that there’s one more thing that i think especially coming from a uniquely christian perspective that is so empowering in prayer in the book of hebrews uh it talks about how jesus is our great high priest and the role of the priest was to come before god you know in the old testament the role of the priest was to come before god on behalf of the people but now we get to go directly to god but we do so alongside jesus and and in hebrews it says we have a great high priest who understands us because he has suffered in every way like we have yet without sin and when i really realized what that meant it meant that you know because like i know jesus was god and i know he was fully man and fully god but i sometimes think that he didn’t live the kind of drudgery life that we do sometimes but he was born into an impoverished family he grew up you know as a day laborer basically as a carpenter he you know in his ministry he was homeless he knew hunger he knew pain he knew betrayal by best friends he knew people in his family not understanding him and laughing at him and thinking he was crazy and so you know one of the confidences that i have in in going to god in prayer is that i you know as i go in jesus name you know and jesus represents me he understands my suffering and and to me that’s having a god that understands our suffering is is pretty profound and i think is is one of those calls like why would you not pray if that’s the case well thank you jay yes ma’am i wish you and your family peace during the storm and i’ll be watching the news and and sending my prayers to i appreciate it yeah i appreciate it and leslie how could i pray for you i just i don’t know that’s a that’s a good question but just recognizing me and who i am and when i do is is uh solace to me

    well good what can i pray for you right now sure all right lord i just thank you for this time with leslie i thank you for putting us in front of one another at the podcast movement and having listened to her podcast some and hearing what she’s doing i just thank you for her i thank you hal she has not fallen into letting this this condition that she has letting letting those challenges be her story and and she’s not fallen into living the rest of her life as a victim and god i pray that as she puts together these podcasts that she uh mentors people god i pray that you would help her to see the goodness of god in her life i pray that that jesus would be very real and evident and i pray that you would help bring the the very people to this show that can be most help we know that there’s so many people out there just on their last ropes so many people in despair and i pray that they could find the show that they could find great comfort in it and that you could help leslie know that she’s doing a really worthwhile work and i pray that you would make it very fruitful in jesus name amen amen thank you jay thank you for listening to glass half full leslie invites you to leave a rating and review on itunes this helps spread the word to others dealing with chronic health issues for show notes updates and more visit the website glass half full dot online glass half full dot online

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    Transcript

    okay okay boom um so well actually first i want to make sure that i not only pronounce your name correctly but have your entire name because the name of the skype account could that be your husband’s name or no that’s my birth name so my birth name is gitanjali and the last name that you see there it’s my parents i haven’t quite done the conversion to my husband’s last name because of all the paperwork and then the name that you know me by shahrunya that was a spiritual name given to me by acharya shunya and it’s a very interesting process you know so most of the students in our school got an additional name to their birth name based on what goal they needed to achieve so my name sharanya actually means the one who gives refuge and more than refuge i think that sounds more egoistic but really who can’t who doesn’t make distinction between who comes to that person for help and given that i was a very judgmental person now that i can see that when i was studying in the school i never quite knew why she would give that name to me and now the work that i do in the clinic you know i can’t deny service to anyone just because of whatever i may be thinking or the opinion i’m forming so that name is very apt in that sense and she and she really like sort of zeroed in on something it was like a psychic sort of uh vision for her pretty much that’s how she gives name you know like she’ll go into her zone and she’ll give a name and she’ll say this is this is your name in addition to whatever you have and you can choose to go just by that or continue with your birth name as well and yeah so it just comes to her i wouldn’t say randomly that’s not the word but really the psychic power of you know where she thinks you need to be going and these are students who have worked with her for four or five years so it’s not like i’m meeting her for the first time and she’s coming up with something so she’s known me she knows my patterns and then you know she’s going into a zone and coming up with a name because i asked for it uh-huh wow okay so how when i when i introduce you because i don’t you know i i do like an intro and a little bio information and then in the podcast notes which is you know text on the webpage uh what what name would you best do you prefer i go by so okay i can do that i can type that for you in the oh no i have well i have your signature from the email and then so i have it all available just if you could say it one more time slowly and i will be able to practice that before i record my intro okay it’s

    that’s the first name and then gitanjali

    okay and chakraborty you could just skip that completely if you wanted to oh no no i can do it i i did an interview with uh a man i met at a yoga conference uh merely and and i can’t remember his last name but i was able to pronounce it but i had met him in person and he i don’t know if you happen to see it it’s called the science of yoga i saw it on your podcast i haven’t had a chance to hear it but i definitely saw merlie’s recording there okay have you heard of him no i haven’t oh he’s you know i just i went to two of his sessions in seattle and i just i i was fascinated with his talk and it may be a talk that other people gave but the way he he made it just so accessible and it’s really you know goes into a lot of uh you know physiological processes that happen uh you know while practicing yoga and i i just loved it so um yeah if you listen to it sometime i mean i’m sure you’re familiar with a lot of it but i found him very accessible so that’s why i asked him to participate that’s amazing but it was good for me to listen to his pronunciation a few times because i i i was saying merely but it was kind of more like a a melodic you know flow to it than i uh anyhow so um can you tell me about the chronic condition you you spoke about at the the class the workshop i went to because i you know i i just find um when someone has a personal story that led them to you know significant changes in their life and for you not just increasing your health and vitality but also it changed your course of direction um i’m i’m very moved by those kinds of stories yeah i thank you actually those um you know i mean it it was completely a turning point for me so uh it started i actually used to suffer from chronic constipation and actually i’ll start again because chronic constipation was not the root cause so what had happened is that in 2006 is when i was doing a yoga teacher training course and right around that time after i finished it i found a patch on my leg which looked strange and i didn’t know what it was but i ignored it for some time and then i was getting married uh in 2007 and then things were starting to advance a little more so right before i was getting married i wanted to resolve everything that was going on and so i started exploring you know the regular dermatologist and i was in india at that time and i went to a skin specialist and he saw and examined my patch and he’s like oh it’s nothing it’s just dry skin it’ll go away and then i said but i’ve had this for almost a year and he said ah well okay in that case you know let’s do different tests and we’ll take a patch of it and test it for different things so they tried all different things a couple of testings and nothing came out and then interestingly they sent me for blood work to test me if i was hiv positive and and i was like wait wait a minute you know i know how that actually happens but i’m pretty sure i haven’t been in contact in that sense you know so it doesn’t make sense to me they were like oh no no no we’re not you know we’re doing this just to rule things out so i was like okay fine so i did that and nothing came out so interestingly you know they just kept moving me from one department to the other and nothing actually came off it because it was a really tiny patch and it’s interesting that i keep emphasizing on it because it’ll become more relevant uh you know in the later part of the story so then uh finally you know they sent me the to um they told me they recommended me to a psychiatric department saying that i’m just imagining things and i don’t really have something going on so i said okay that’s it you know i i really need to find something else and i’m going to give this up for now and try to heal myself but then i got married i got married moved to the u.s and then you know we were on an insurance and i restarted reinitiated that whole um health thing to find out if the doctors here could find a reason for it so here they told me okay it’s eczema and it’s you know will give you a steroid and you know it’ll take care of it i said great and how long am i taking it so they said we’ll start you with a lower percentage and then we’ll keep increasing the dosage you know it it’s hard to say if you’ll ever stop using it it may happen or it may not happen and i said no but that’s not my solution i need something where i’m not dependent on anything so that’s where my alternative search started ayurveda not being the first one so i started with homeopathy macrobiotics and um i also went vegan so i tried everything for six months each and nothing you know they they definitely had their own value because they would resolve some other thing that my body was going through but i wasn’t really getting help with what i was suffering with which is when um we went for you know a yoga retreat me and my husband to grass valley farm and which is not too far from here and there there was it i’d with a practitioner on the center and my husband said why don’t you give this a try it has like it’s too expensive i think the consultation was about 250 dollars and to me i don’t know that at that point it felt a little outrageous i said this is so expensive and i don’t even know if it’s going to benefit me but you know given that he pushed me into it and i said okay i’ll go to her so then our consultation began and it was i think it lasted about an hour 15 minutes and you know she went through the entire life story you know the medical history and what i was going through and then we came to this part where she talked about digestion and i told her oh yeah i don’t have bowel movements every day i have constipation but that’s because my grandfather had it my father has it and i have it so don’t worry about that i took pills for it so she said no no no let’s focus on that how long have you had it i said no you don’t get it i came here to you for my eczema which started with the patch and now it’s you know in quite a few places and i really need to take care of that so she said don’t worry about it we’ll get to it but let’s just focus here on the digestive system and it was back and forth and you know so i was getting a little antsy with her and because i felt i wasn’t able to get through and she had her point but you know she had to scold me at some point to tell me that either you surrender and believe in what i’m going to tell you or you know we can end this right here so then that had grounded myself and i said okay fine given i have tried everything else let me give this a faithful shot before i give up and you had invested 250 dollars exactly that was no refund definitely so then you know she she changed that course for me basically of sleep patterns on when i should be there were multiple things in lifestyle that she wanted to fix and also she gave me some sort of a medication um combination of ghee and some other herbs which would focus on the digestive system and constipation and you know interestingly when i walked away there was nothing in the herb list which was directly going to be an application on the eczema but i said okay you know it’s okay i will just trust her what she has to say and try it and so for the next three months i um get you know ate whatever she gave me and interestingly what i had ha suffered for for 10 years that went away i mean with that medication and change of lifestyle those five six seven things i did it completely transformed my life where you know the bowel movement you know interestingly in ayurveda it’s such an important aspect of your life which we completely ignore you know so i had never thought that having a great bowel movement is going to give me that moment of aha and satisfaction so with those herbs for the next three months it just magically transformed my life and uh and and that was something i never thought i could get off pills i thought i would always need it so that actually got me interested in ayurveda i mean it didn’t handle my eczema directly but that got me interested in studying ayurveda to really understand the science and how she arrived at what she was thinking and why she tackled what she did so interestingly my background is biochemistry so i had done i’ve studied biochemistry masters in biochemistry and then i did research for about five years and so i had that analytical mind where i really need to know why i’m doing something and how it’s affecting my body and how the pathways are acting so because this thing tackled my condition i wanted to know exactly what was the science behind it yeah no so i just i would like you to reiterate that what she gave you when you refer to it as medication they they were just herbs sort of the the source not any sort of compound right it was it was basically um food based so it was ghee which is clarified butter mixed with some of the other herbs which are locally available and you know they are legal here so and uh and it was basically just having that and i don’t think she gave me any other pills nothing else so i was supposed to have that that one teaspoon of that ghee early in the morning on empty stomach and prior to that you know my lifestyle was kind of all over the place because my husband was a grad student so we would go to bed at 3 a.m and wake up at noon so with the her consultation that shifted you know from um we would go to bed maybe 10 p.m and then wake up by 6 a.m and then i would do my yoga practice and so that was a huge change as well and and then incorporating that uh medicated or you know herb potentiated ghee and just for two months or three months so after that you know when i started i started looking for places where i could study ayurveda and i found a few online classes but i felt like i needed a community because i would read these books and i would get stuck on the 10th page or 11th page because there was some concept which i just wasn’t to dig through so finally you know i found our school which is vedica global and that was a very interesting encounter so it happened in a bookstore near our home and you know we would get these magazines where you have the listing of all the upcoming events so my husband was browsing through it and we we would never actually look at it so we would get that magazine because we were in that neighborhood but that month he was looking through it and he found um acharya shunya giving a talk in this bookstore and he’s like you got to go to this talk and i was like uh why why her so he said you know she he had heard her talk maybe 10 years ago in berkeley and what she had said at that time really stuck with him so she’s a very powerful teacher and conveys things in a very simple format so i said okay so it was a free you know wednesday evening class for one and a half hour just to introduce the topic so i showed up there um and there was a workshop on the weekend which i hadn’t signed up for but i thought i’ll just go see and check it out so at the end of that one and a half hour talk i was really moved and you know i was i went up to her to say hello but i was i started crying and um i i don’t think it was tears of sorrow it was just i couldn’t help myself there was something which had really shaken for me and uh when we met you know i’m not even sure if i should say it but when we met she said where have you been i’ve been waiting for you and we have a long way to go and i said uh okay

    you know i live in mountain view and school is in emeryville and it’s quite a drive and i have a full-time job so i’m not sure she’s like logistics are you know something which you should never be concerned about it’ll all work out but come you know we have a lot a lot of work and we have a long way to go and then i took the weekend class and then you know that’s how the journey really began with not knowing what lied in the future but just doing it more as a self-care and for self-healing so i joined the school for you know the school at that time we had these different programs where the first two months were set was self-care and then there was a year program which was you know more into self-care where you can go deeper into it and really help yourself and your family and then there was a three-year course which would um allow you to help the community and then there was a five-year course beyond that like if you wanted to do which would make you into a practitioner so i said okay you know i’m going to take one thing at a time and i started with two months and you know i went and talked to my boss and i said that um you know i really want to do this and this is a course which is happening but you know it’s in the evening and i work till five is there a way i could leave earlier and he said anything to support yourself journey that’s totally fine you know for two months it’s not a problem i said okay excellent so for two months i found a carpool and it was just amazing but the moment the two month ended and i was like this is not enough i want to go deeper so then you know again that conversation with my boss and he seemed fine and you know somehow it just worked itself out and interestingly at the end of finishing the one-year course i had already started to heal my eczema because you know with a lot of lifestyle and food and dietary habits things started to shift and so i i didn’t really need any uh major herbs for it but just a few changes with food and lifestyle had a huge impact on it and that’s when i found out that you know some of these skin things are really triggered by stress at the i didn’t experience active stress but there was something lying subconscious which i didn’t quite connect the dots so the map started forming for me and so what started more as a two-year one-year program you know it just kept happening and then i finished as a five-year graduate

    it’s such a beautiful science it’s so amazing i mean till this date i graduated i think 2014 um end of 2014 and it speed almost three years but i’m still learning because now you know i i also teach so as i teach i find more questions and then i go back into the books and then i’m learning more so it’s it’s a lifelong study but it’s just so beautiful on how it factors into every aspect of life and it’s not just a compartment of oh you know you have a headache let’s just focus on your head and forget everything else because you know there is no body under it no let’s look at everything in your life house you know how’s your relationship how’s your digestive system how’s your mental health how are you doing lifestyle wise how are your food habits how are your interactions everything so when you were um you were studying to be a yoga teacher in india right that’s right did did you um had you trained at all in biochemistry yes prior to that so so was were you going to teach yoga on the side or what was sort of your your game plan at that point you know i actually don’t know i was always drawn to these things so with the yoga teacher training my agenda really was that it was a month long and it was called yoga teacher training so it was a month long um going away in an ashram shivananda ashram and it was in the hills so for me it was more of the experience you know just to be living a certain life in an ashram and learning yoga and getting something out of it and going deeper into the knowledge so it wasn’t really from a career perspective it was more from a deep learning perspective that i wanted to know more and know more of the philosophy be behind the yoga asanas and that school did focus on that you know maybe not so much in depth but still we would have the asana or the posture practice on how to learn it and then how to teach it both but there was a significant amount of time where we were also taught the philosophy and i love that part and and did they cover any ayurvedic principles was that part of that training no not really actually there’s a real separation i mean yeah i think even food wise they had very pure food you know satwik food but i wouldn’t necessarily say that they were following ayurveda principles actively they may be doing it subconsciously but you know we weren’t taught about it it never happened you know interestingly the first exposure i had to ayurveda was pre-biochemistry so in my past life i also did an mba um so my uh education journey has been pretty crazy so as an undergrad actually in india when you finish your middle school and when you’re in high school in the 11th 12th grade you choose a stream it’s either arts which is liberal arts or science or commerce meaning more on the business side and i didn’t i wasn’t a very bright student and so um you know so then you can’t just choose something because you like it it is based on how much percentage you make so because i was on the lowest end my only option was liberal arts so you know so it’s like the highest if you’re getting above 80 percentile you’ll be in the science if you’re getting you know a little lower than that you have an option of going into commerce but if you are even below that then you go into liberal arts because they don’t ask you to leave the school so i did liberal arts and you know political science history and i took mathematics too and then after my 12th grade you know then the options were again limited but then i studied business in my undergrad which was a lot more fun than what i had studied in school so i did that and then in india you know your parents really decide your trajectory on where you’re going to go regardless of what your interest is so i was interested in psychology but they felt no no no we need you to study something else so i studied business in my undergrad so automatically because you’re business undergrad you do a master’s in business so the masters in business happened for me in maharashi university in iowa in iowa yes that’s how i came to the us in 2000 and so there you know that was a very interesting school it’s an amazing school so the way they work is it’s a block system so you take one subject you study that over a whole month and that you know in between you have a midterm and then you have a final and then you have a long weekend at the end of each month but they also have the spiritual aspect integrated so there is you know transcendental meditation and um the other there is also yoga and they’re big into ayurveda so a lot of the teachers who teach in that school they would you know as a part of their incentive i believe they would go for yearly panchakarmas within ayurveds the place the place is called the raj and so i would i was exposed to this you know so that was the first time when i heard about vata pitta kapha and all the teachers are eating this chavan prash and there are these teas available in our bookstore and i said what is this stuff you know why are people going crazy about this what was so fascinating is that you were born and raised in india and you had to come to iowa exactly and and seeing people’s dedication to it you know that going for panchakarma and the food was so fresh and they would emphasize on it and and sadly because i had just come from india you know um i wanted more fast food and so the school was completely vegetarian so and you had to walk miles to access any fast food place like the closest being a burger king which was at least three mile walk but call it desperation we would go all the way there to eat the junk and not eat the healthy food which was provided in our cafeteria wow and you know so and the timings were according to the daily routine how we have in ayurveda you know so morning breakfast was at a certain time and lunch but the best was dinner like you would not be served dinner after 6 30 p.m i think that was the latest 6 30 or 7. so they really followed that rule and uh again you know that was so strange for us that who eats dinner at 6 p.m and so yeah but i didn’t have that appreciation for it at that time so um your your studies in biochemistry were were in the states or in india that was in the us so after mba i studied biochemistry at georgetown university in washington dc and uh yeah it was a it was a one and a half to two year program and that that got me interested into you know learning more of holistic approach reason being because i was coming from business so in business you have like a overall vision you know when you’re looking at an organization with different departments and everything so you’re not just compartmentalizing but with biochemistry or any kind of science you’re going at a cellular molecular level so you’re really coming down to narrow it to one little pathway or one little thing that is happening inside which was good but i kind of like the bigger vision that okay you know we are studying so i was after i finished my biochemistry i was working in a lab which worked on alzheimer’s disease and so our focus was really you know one tiny part of the brain and uh we were more into the you know and and when we would study these brain sections of people who passed away with alzheimer’s and look at a certain part of the cortex under the microscope our focus was just that i mean there was a huge story there but we were still missing the bigger picture and that always you know somehow i felt there was a missing piece that this is not it i need to find something bigger you know something bigger which encompasses this but it’s not it and i i didn’t quite know how to put it together at that point and then i thought maybe it’s this particular condition which doesn’t quite excite me because you know we’re not getting too far with it i was in a basic science research so um so were your days i mean were you like wearing the white lab coat and you know working in a very clean environment just doing research looking through microscopes what was your daily life like was it really like that it was like that and it was spending a lot of time in the dark room you know either developing films because we would do all these uh x-rays of you know certain it’s called western blot where you’re studying certain um proteins and uh or slicing the brain and then you know staining them and then looking it under the microscope and seeing all these in alzheimer’s disease there is there are these plaque formation in the brain so you would see these and and you know all of that is so fascinating just to see it under the microscope and you know one tiny thing can impact your neurons so heavily and uh but there was a lot of alone time you know when you’re doing things on your own you’re imagining things and you’re literally having these stories come alive where you have some kind of hypothesis and you’re trying to match it with whatever research you’re doing to see if the results are coming together so and what you do now like how different is it dramatically different is it from that type of work it’s completely you know 100 no 360 degrees or 180 degrees so then you know actually after um georgetown my job i once i was done with that i moved back to india got married and came to bay area and then once i was here and my husband was a grad student so i had to find a job and so he wanted me to go explore and my only experience was in a lab so i had no other option so then i went back into a lab doing research of a different kind and it was uh studying fishes and again you know similar we’re spending a lot of time in the dark room and you know a microscope and looking at all of the stuff but then once ayurveda studies happened and i think around my third year in ayurveda is when i decided to quit my job because one i was expecting our first child and two i felt like i’m done with this you know i’m not doing justice to my soul by being where i was um because it was a very limited thinking process of just a whole field so i wanted some more expansion to it and so when i with ayurveda now um i do multiple things i wear many hats one of them being i am the program director at the school from where i graduated so i get these um you know i get to design the curriculum design workshops and how the classes will flow what will go in it it’s amazing on you know having that flow on how i want to teach it and you know the whole field is my play area and i can pick anything from anywhere and um i run a clinic which is donation based it’s in its fourth year of running and that has been going on for since you know early 2014 and along with that i also teach at different places one is within my school and different you know one was where you came to attend the class i also teach um yearly at least once or twice at stanford which started happening um also about two years ago so you know so with the teaching and with you know designing the programs and with the clinic they all kind of feed into each other where there’s a lot of community some you know constantly involved with people not in microscope rooms anymore but also you know it is it’s much broader uh questioning but interestingly you know given that when i worked in the lab i didn’t appreciate it so much because i didn’t quite know what was the meaning in it but now studying ayurveda i appreciate my science knowledge so much more because what it did to me was it gave me a very analytical thinking so i wouldn’t just stop at oh because so and so sage says this so this is it you know so be it i have to know why you know if certain foods are not working with each other i have to know why and so that research uh mindset has really helped me even to teach you know given when people ask certain questions it really helps to bring that element of the biochemistry where you’re just thinking in one pathway and to have that holistic perspective to have a bigger picture so it’s almost like when i’m hearing the question i’m literally imagining going inside the body and seeing how things are playing out i mean not that i can see anything but you know no no i mean it all feeds into you know a deeper understanding so as as part of your work at the clinic are you doing consults with people who come in and and may have some kind of condition like a skin rash but you dig deeper to help them find sort of the source of of the problem yes it’s it’s all over so the age group is literally you know from birth or you know i’ve seen the youngest i think six month old and the oldest i have seen is a 88 or 89 year old and the conditions vary you know from um it could be a minor cold which keeps reoccurring to something like um people are struggling with cancer and to them because our clinic you know so one of the things our school specializes in and it’s unique is that it focuses just on diet and lifestyle and it’s fundamentally based on the principle that if your diet is wrong medicine is of no use and if your diet is right medicine is of no need and that’s um such a powerful court to sit with that you know i use it while teaching i use it while i’m in the clinic and i’ve seen that work through with people so for instance you know when people are coming with cancer i have to clarify to them that i don’t prescribe any medication or herbs you have to still consult your regular physician for whatever treatment you’re taking but what i can support you maybe is with food and lifestyle if you’re open to it so sometimes they follow through sometimes they don’t because you know they have a strict um food regime around it so there is no imposition or you know we don’t take them off anything whatever they’re comfortable with but it’s more of an education platform as to how things are working and what is going on and for them to be able to make the decision if they wanted to go with it or they didn’t want to but worth it i think the success has been mostly with metabolic issues where um you know people have suffered with digestion related issues for years and they haven’t quite been able to connect that one food that they’re eating and how they’re feeling and just eliminating that it’s literally you know making these minor changes which has such a huge impact and it’s amazing to see that and it you know keeps repeating itself like just incorporating for instance hot water or just incorporating waking up early i mean i can vouch for the waking up early you know from the from waking up at noon all the way to waking up at 6 00 am and i think i’ve continued that even now it’s amazing it’s like you feel more energetic you have more time in the day and you’re more functional you’re more efficient but it’s hard to explain that but it’s so experiential so that’s how we uh you know ayurvedically when we would interact with people we would try to bring that element that try one tiny thing and see how that works on you and from there you would know because once your body which is a lab has experienced it it knows how it’s going to behave and once you have experienced the fruit of it the chances of you incorporating that more in your life are higher and we wouldn’t have to micromanage your life well you it sounds like you already had that seed planted by your approach to handling your eczema before you discovered ayurveda because you what you told me was you try this alternative modality for six months and then you try another and you were very methodical about it i was impressed with that i don’t think you talked about that at the workshop i went to yeah i think the story has become so long it’s always hard to say you know what to incorporate and what to leave out i do remember and i believe it was you that told this story and if you don’t want to talk about it that’s fine but it was about someone who came to you and you discovered that all they consumed were smoothies uh-huh i have many of those that’s your story right uh which which one can you remind me again it was a woman who had i can’t remember what the issues were right but she said they’re healthy i read that a smoothie is healthy and you found out that’s all she consumed that was her total diet was that right right yeah i remember that story so this lady was actually interestingly you know when um um when you attended the class and you went through these concepts of vata kapha so you know the air element right i’m just gonna give that brief outline for anyone who’s listening for the first time that the five elements come together to form these three doshas and these five elements also play out on a daily basis you know certain time of the day they are more active and similarly even with stage of life so air element is most active in the third stage of life so post 55 years of age or 60 years of age so that’s there is a little variation there and basically means that you know at that stage of life your body is more in that depletion mode but if you’ve had enough nourishment in the first um 40-50 years of your life as in you’ve been healthy and lived well and done things correctly then you wouldn’t have that much depletion in that stage so she was above 55 and she’d been on a smoothie diet because somebody had told her that’s what is um good for her so she would have the green smoothie for breakfast and then for lunch and for dinner almost for two years and when i had seen her what she had come with is you know a lot of um dryness in the knees you know cracking bones as well as some kind of a strange bump in her hand and right yes yes it was you know it was almost like a dip it wasn’t a bump it was a dip and um and you know i have to say this sadly i got excited seeing that after questioning because i was like oh my god you’re a perfect case of what an aggravated air quality can do you know it really dries you up so the cracking of the sound is air and the dip which is depletion is again because of that air and space element and i said what you know so when we went through her diet i was like wow there was absolutely no element of oil and no warm foods and i said all you know if if it were up to me i would keep you in a tub of oil for almost a week because i can almost imagine you know the body coming back to shape after being in an oily place you know it’s i love these analogies and um imaginations where you can imagine things coming back to their shape because they were so dry have you seen that you know i’ve seen my daughter’s toy where you soak a dinosaur in water for 48 hours and it expands

    so it was like that i said you know i almost can see that your issues would be fixed because there is so much dryness and it’s almost sad that you know when people would come to the clinic and they say i eat mostly healthy and that’s always alarming for me because you know the health defined because we have all the access to internet and all these different places people don’t rely on authentic sources so that’s an issue that they would not you know go back and check where is this reference taken from if it is just someone’s blog or writing basically you’re just relying things on people’s opinion and that’s a problem because it has no coat from the source text so with her what we did was you know primarily put her on oil and oiling regularly all all over her body as well as incorporating some amount of cooked foods and you know getting rid of the smoothie so the bump of course i mean the dip in the hand of course didn’t go but she definitely felt better with her knee pain and and the other bath experiences that she was going through and so i was telling her that that should be you know enough testimonial for you to see that your body needs that kind of nourishment and you know this so-called healthy food is actually not helping you yeah what i i i’ve actually repeated my interpretation of this of your story to several people because for me the most astonishing thing is that somebody can hear information you know this food kale is good you know how every few months there’s another rage about the superfood and so they take that piece of information and they they treat it like gospel and that’s all they eat and i it just you know it’s scary that people can sort of misinterpret information like that so thank you for um filling out that story because it it’s a bigger story i had forgotten about the um

    you know what what it was indicative of in terms of our ayurveda yeah so one of the other things is also that you know people don’t apply things in moderation and i don’t know if it’s a problem of the current age or it has always existed i’m not sure because you know i’ve just been in the clinic for last three and a half years um anything like you said you know kale is a super food so people would go in extreme it’s part of every diet and ayurveda’s message really is moderation so for instance khichari is a superfood and it’s considered medicinal in many ways you know as a cleanser as a digestive but again overdoing it would also hurt you so it’s not that anything which is overdone it may have the most amazing qualities it cannot help you because that’s not the goal moderation is the key that is a good bumper sticker moderation is the key okay well i um this has been fascinating and i’m conscious of the time and i think um i think what i’d like to have you um talk about and you know this is such a a broad question but what would you recommend to people out there who have some sort of condition and they know nothing about ayurveda uh what would you suggest they do because i i know something with such a rich history can be daunting you know people write they want that quick fix they want are you better light right right i think you know i mean given with my teaching experience right now in the last two two and a half years where you know when i’m going into the stanford community and um interestingly you know the workshop we did with you guys was a two day long workshop which is a little more intensive and we can get more information down but it’s still pretty encapsulated and so with these shorter classes and workshops it’s so hard to pass the information in a way that it’ll stay with you and also for you to be able to apply i feel that you know my main key points for people have been one moderation is the key no matter what you’re doing and anything that you feel is healthy to re-question it you know how to do it and so you would read different books with ayurveda and even when you know we were in the workshop we gave information about our daily routine the kind of foods the timing of the day but it’s important to make one change at a time because again the moderation is the key here as well where you don’t want to apply everything in one go and go to the other extreme because you’re gonna shock your body it hasn’t been used to it so one one implement you know implementing one tiny change by just maybe switching from cold water to little warmer water depending on the season because if it’s hot weather you won’t want to drink hot water and um if you know you’re waking up at 8 a.m for instance then going back a little 15 minutes so doing some of these books give you a lot of information on what are the key ways of living a life and taking those and implementing maybe one or two things on a daily basis and seeing how that feels for you because um you know one of the things is also that ayurveda can deal with um chronicity of a situation far more than you know when you are dealing with something which is just super basic meaning that you’ve suffered with a condition for many years you know for instance that eczema patch that i had um you know it was just a patch until it manifested in a full form on my two legs they couldn’t call it eczema because you know it was more of just starting to come and surface and it hadn’t manifested into a disease so conventional medicine is great handling when it comes to a full fledged disease but with ayurveda if you’ve suffered with those lightness of things for many years you know like a chronic cuff for instance or a chronic cold then it will intervene and say oh you know let’s look at the root causes how you’ve been living how you’ve been eating how are your bowel movements how is your sleep so it’ll go back into all of that and tweak things to adjust to see where things are wrong and to fix it and it may take three or four months but it’ll actually handle it from the root cause and it won’t just be symptomatic relief it won’t be okay like let me just give you a cough drop and you’ll be fine at night and you’ll be able to sleep through no we want it to go away you know we’re not going to do just a band-aid on this for you to be okay for just a few days and then go back and suffer so um i think i know which book you’d recommend i would say i’m so biased towards my teacher’s book so ayurveda lifestyle wisdom definitely is the book that i absolutely think has you know mostly lifestyle related tools that can be implemented and and it also goes through the daily routine and how things should be done it’s a pretty fat book but it’s not recommended to read like cover to cover if you want to great there are some amazing stories there but uh it’s really you know one of those books where i would just randomly open a page and i would read two or three pages and i’m you know i have to digest it because there is so much information and more from a deeper knowledge perspective that you can’t just read clothes and forget about it it’s really food for thought i will definitely include a link to uh the book and how about a website um the the center’s website uh that’s vedica global.org okay any other website was so you know people listen to this podcast all over the country and actually i have listeners you know uh in uh different parts of the world what do you recommend or is there a quote-unquote clearinghouse of you know where to go for ayurvedic treatment um so treatment per se our school is currently working on a clinic to be launched in 2018 um i was running this donation-based clinic and i’m on a pause because of maternity for about five six months but my colleague has taken over so if they go to vedica global.org there’s information about where to go for a consultation for diet and lifestyle it also has information about classes because the school’s purpose really was you know when when i mentioned that 250 dollars was a stiff price tag for me you know i when i started my practice that was something i couldn’t do um not because i felt that what she charged was wrong but because i felt that i wanted ayurveda to be accessible for people to be able to try and really you know transform their lives so the donation-based clinic happened because of my teacher’s vision because she really wanted ayurveda to be accessible to the whole community so we resonated on that and you know it has been amazing that we just we don’t charge money so it’s it’s very interesting the way this clinic runs it’s a three series appointment so the first time they come in with their forms and you know we’ll talk to them and it’s a full one our intake second appointment is where we hand out the diet lifestyle recommendations and third appointment is a month later where they’ll come and report how things were with them and at that point we’ll give them a feedback in a donation form if they wish to donate so you know interestingly this uh process evolved more over the last year and a half so now you know sometimes when people come in the first appointment they’re like i really want to make a donation and i and i’m very strict about it i’m like no because you haven’t been through the process and nothing has happened yet unfortunately we can’t accept it because we are also in that philosophy of that the generosity has to come from the heart when you’ve experienced something so you know so i you were allowed to make that donation in the third appointment and we would gladly accept but we cannot in the first and second hmm i like that it’s beautiful so yeah you know so with on the website there is information about classes a lot of classes are free as well you know there is uh the spiritual studies which is offered by webinar as well as in person so a lot of those classes are partly free partly donation based because the goal of the school essentially is more of an outreach to the community for healthy living and so they can you know make basic changes just with where they’re living with diet and lifestyle and to really be in sync with nature because the more we’re going inside our computers the more we are going away from the plants and trees so it’s really reconnecting with the soil well is there anything else you’d like to add i think that’s it sorry i i i thought i didn’t have much to say no it was wonderful and and you know i’m just i i so appreciate you doing this um because you you do have um you have a lot of wisdom and knowledge and you’re still a young woman so imagine what you’re gonna be like when you’re 60 you know i hope the knowledge keeps coming my way and i keep getting opportunities of learning these classes and workshop really helped me go deep and interacting with people and you know knowing their stories you know just like you are learning so much with people’s stories i love knowing people’s health stories and what what their take on it is and where we are coming at it from and then arriving at you know some mid-level ground to heal it yeah i mean it is you know the bittersweet part of having a condition is that it offers opportunities to to dig deeper um learn more that helps you physically emotionally and spiritually and um and this podcast series definitely is uh you know quite a journey for me well thank you so much rania thank you did i say right almost right almost right okay i’m gonna definitely before i introduce you i’m gonna you know practice so i’m gonna send you uh an email just to confirm a few things and what i would love is if you could send me a photo of you whatever photo you like you know if it’s um you teaching or interacting with a client and the client you know could be their back it doesn’t you don’t have to reveal a face or anything whatever you feel comfortable with that would be great okay sure we’ll do that or i’ll just send you my headshot okay well i i hope these next three weeks are um very relaxing and comforting and do you know if you’re having a boy or a girl it’s a boy and you know it’s amazing he supported me all through you know and he’s also going in all these classes and teaching with follow-ups it’s super fun you know interestingly my daughter when i was pregnant with her i was studying at vedic i was in my first year of school or second year of school and then when she happened i used to take her with me as a carpool partner so you know i had hired a babysitter in emeryville so she would take her and in between i would nurse her and take notes in the class so she’s been with me through my ayurveda journey and it’s amazing because now you know with foods that she eats you know she knows when she’s coming down with the cold she’ll tell me what medicine and honey and you know she’ll avoid certain foods it’s it’s it’s so amazing to see that that you know it’s part of her lifestyle and education that she got that concept so early on cool wow that is great well i and and she’s ready for her brother she’s excited she’s super excited and i told her i had planned it in such a way that the baby arrives in summer vacation so she had something to play well thank you so much and i look forward to i’m um you know seeing you again you know hopefully at the emeryville center i’m looking forward to going to an event or something there yeah that’ll be great i would be there again back maybe in a couple of months but you’ll have a lot of fun people to meet there it’s a it’s a good place yes why i so enjoyed the the workshop that i went to well thank you and have a wonderful weekend and um you know we’ll be in touch yeah you too thank you leslie bye bye bye